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Tuesday, October 14, 2014

There are good dreams and bad dreams. Dreams of things you wish to accomplish in your life. The dreams I have been having the past couple of days are draining me of energy. The past couple of nights I fall asleep and dream people close to me are dying or died. The first night it was many of my family and friends had end stage cancer, that I had the responsibility to take care of them and they only had a day to live and I found out at the beginning of that last day. Last night my daughter died. Now, I do not have a daughter. I have had a couple miscarriages but I have 3 boys, ages 21, 18, and 10. I am connected to my 10 year old in a different way than the older boys. May be because we had to wait so long for him, or he has had a difficult health life, or may be it is because he is a mirror image of my personality. Who knows. But my dream last night, I was with all my family trying to call my grandma (who died several years ago) to tell her she had a grand daughter and she is now dead. I guess writing this out I realize it would be her great grand daughter. I would be her grand daughter. This death of my daughter came suddenly and with great surprise. When I woke my heart was so heavy and full of sadness. I know it was just a dream but I hugged my son and told him I loved him and got him ready for school. I guess I assumed the daughter was actually my son. But maybe not.
A key heavy point of the dream was my grandma and making sure she knew that her grand daughter had existed but has now passed. I looked up what death in dreams means. Well, some of the meanings trying to make sense out of these dreams. And one of the things it said was that it meant the end of something and the beginning of another thing. That the dreamer was ready to let go of something in the past and move forward. Sometimes meaning health. Could these dreams mean I realize I have changed my health for the better? That I am willing to put my bad health in the past and move forward in a healthy way to never return to that unhealthy lifestyle? Research online says it is a possibility. That settles my heart some. I wonder if anyone else out there has changed their life for the better as far as their health and habits and had the same type of dreams. It is interesting to think about how you internally mourn your bad habits and how that can effect your dreams. Well, I am tired but not drained too much like yesterday. So here's hoping to better dreams tonight and hoping I figured out why I am dreaming what I did dream. emoticon I am a big believer that if you can figure out what your dreams mean, they will let you move forward.
Now, onto moving more boxes lol!!! emoticon
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    Wow! I dreamed of death last night, too, and I don't usually. I dreamed a huge jetliner crashed in the middle of my city. Now I'm wondering what, specifically, I'm ready to leave behind. Thank you for your blog and the great info!
    2326 days ago
    Oh man, what disturbing dreams! I'd be looking for explanations like you though. Hopefully tonight you will have a peaceful dream that puts a smile on your face!
    2327 days ago
    I have not had the exact dreams as you but have had those times when I have awoken from a dream purely exhausted, heart racing, scared to death or crying even from a deep deep loss I had to re-live in my dreams(i.e. lost of brother), but also feel a deep sense of gratitude at that very moment(for I felt he was communicating with me). Dreams are strange at times, perhaps one of your miscarriages, was a girl soul. I am not sure of your spiritual beliefs and I do not wish to offend, if I did.

    Your last sentence about moving boxes, makes me think maybe your recent or upcoming move is a reflection of your dream. However, I did appreciate your correlation between your improved health (the new you) and the past (your old self).

    Good luck on your continue journey through life in the pursuit of the best you can be!! emoticon
    2327 days ago
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