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From regret to restart

Wednesday, October 22, 2014

I regret what I ate last night but I am going to forgive myself and restart today in a way that I will make sure I do better than yesterday. All I can do is learn, wipe the slate clean and put my best foot forward. The key word is forward! I can not let last night stop me from all the progress I have made.

I thought about where I was a year ago. Yes, I believe this time of year is the hardest for me. It shows in my test results. And I do sabotage myself when things are going good. I DO deserve things good in my life. I need to hold on to that....ALWAYS! Last year I was in pain, I couldn't breathe very well, I had poor balance and no stamina. I was unable to control my blood sugars. They were WAY up there in the 400's and beyond. My blood pressure was out of control. I was under tremendous amounts of stress. I was unhappy and ashamed of myself.

But look at me today! I have gotten my blood sugar under control for the most part. I HAVE struggled within myself since July to keep it down and make the right choices but never made as bad of a decision as I made last night. I got my blood pressure down to a healthy number too! I lost a significant amount of weight and improved my stress enormously! I learned to take time for me and know it was ok. I learned and adhered to calming myself so I did not hold onto anger. I am so much happier and healthier. I lowered my A1C significantly....I was winning. It felt amazing! I was so proud of myself!!!!

I need that back. Laps in attitude and self discipline are at fault. I need to get those back for myself. I am ready to do my best daily. Do my best minute by minute. Accept the consequences for my actions, there are bound to be some. And accept the benefits as well. I deserve to be happy, healthy and to feel alive.

So, today I go from regret to restart. One step at a time forward may be small but it is in the right direction. And from a step comes a stride. I will be back on track jumping those hurdles once again! And being proud of what I am doing for myself.

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    Your awareness is definitely going to help you in the future. You've come a long way, and one bad day isn't going to ruin it for you. I'm glad you can come on here and get the support that you need, and also that you are your own support system. emoticon emoticon
    2320 days ago
    We all have these. We need to keep looking forward and seeing ourselves as a new person. Every once in a while, I will sort out the clothes that I cannot fit into and put them in bags that will go to a thrift store like Salvation Army and Goodwill and let them use the money for what they do. Hope that you do the same thing.
    2320 days ago
  • JAROL7
    weight loss starts with a DECISION.
    2320 days ago
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