From regret to restart
Wednesday, October 22, 2014
I regret what I ate last night but I am going to forgive myself and restart today in a way that I will make sure I do better than yesterday. All I can do is learn, wipe the slate clean and put my best foot forward. The key word is forward! I can not let last night stop me from all the progress I have made.
I thought about where I was a year ago. Yes, I believe this time of year is the hardest for me. It shows in my test results. And I do sabotage myself when things are going good. I DO deserve things good in my life. I need to hold on to that....ALWAYS! Last year I was in pain, I couldn't breathe very well, I had poor balance and no stamina. I was unable to control my blood sugars. They were WAY up there in the 400's and beyond. My blood pressure was out of control. I was under tremendous amounts of stress. I was unhappy and ashamed of myself.
But look at me today! I have gotten my blood sugar under control for the most part. I HAVE struggled within myself since July to keep it down and make the right choices but never made as bad of a decision as I made last night. I got my blood pressure down to a healthy number too! I lost a significant amount of weight and improved my stress enormously! I learned to take time for me and know it was ok. I learned and adhered to calming myself so I did not hold onto anger. I am so much happier and healthier. I lowered my A1C significantly....I was winning. It felt amazing! I was so proud of myself!!!!
I need that back. Laps in attitude and self discipline are at fault. I need to get those back for myself. I am ready to do my best daily. Do my best minute by minute. Accept the consequences for my actions, there are bound to be some. And accept the benefits as well. I deserve to be happy, healthy and to feel alive.
So, today I go from regret to restart. One step at a time forward may be small but it is in the right direction. And from a step comes a stride. I will be back on track jumping those hurdles once again! And being proud of what I am doing for myself.