Urges to do what I just shouldn't do....
Monday, October 27, 2014
I LOVE to cook and bake. Especially in the fall and winter. I have done pretty well at switching up the things I cook for meals and snacks to be low cal and low carb. But I am old school at heart I guess. I love to bake cinnamon rolls, cakes, cookies, breads, pies, bars, muffins....so many things I just shouldn't have. I really have the urge to bake these things tonight. I saw someone on TV make some pumpkin cinnamon rolls and was absolutely inspired. I thought and thought about how I can possibly make that low carb.... I still can not think of a way. To me, this means it is off limits until I can figure out a way to bring the carb count down. My son brought over some German Chocolate cake he made from scratch at work. It sits in my frig in the white Styrofoam box he brought it in. I am too reluctant to open the box. I am afraid I will taste it. Then eat it. So it sits. I have managed to avoid it so far. Maybe I will just have to throw it out. I hate to waste food though and that is a struggle that I need to reprogram.
One thing growing up, and many I know have this issue, is to eat everything on your plate! Do not waste food! This is something both my father and I have had to work on reprogramming. For a diabetic especially, among others, serving size is a major part of self discipline. And when you are programmed for generations to eat it all and not waste it is very very difficult to change that.
I am in the process, and doing quite well I might add, of learning to cook just the servings for each of us in the house for that meal. I am so used to cooking for an army! Seriously!!! I could feed the neighborhood when I cooked and we would eat it all! It has been hard to make my brain know one serving...the right size...is the only thing we need. Anything more is too much. I am not a left overs person. Not that there is anything wrong with left overs! I just was brought up to not leave anything on your plate. So we rarely have left overs. If I do have a left over, it is one serving I can fit into one small Tupperware container and my husband will take it for his lunch. Like tonight, my little guy isn't feeling well and wouldn't eat his dinner so I packaged it up and put it in the frig. I didn't make too much, just happened someone wouldn't eat.
I am glad I blogged this. It took some of the urge to bake away for now. I am trying to channel my baking urges to make stuff to give to people outside this house. That way I can bake but not eat it. Not eating it is tough. I love that stuff more than it loves me and that is dangerous!
Ok, off to hopefully a good nights sleep for everyone!