Hiding Behind a Mask
Sunday, November 02, 2014
Our challenge this weekend is to write about a mask we hide behind. I think to a degree we all do this. I want to be liked - I don't like conflict. I am a peace keeper. But that causes me to not be myself at times. Rather than make a scene, I hide it. I don't let me shine through.
I want to identify with something. when it comes to my fitness journey, I realize I still have a desire to identify with the athlete of my youth. I ran cross country, and always enjoyed hiking and walking in solitude or with a few good friends. I want to get back to that.
I like doing what I'm doing. I don't hide behind that - I believe in doing something that is sustainable. That's why you won't see me doing any kind of fad diet. Just the thought of eating things I wouldn't eat forever just makes me feel ill. I want to live my lifestyle now, just as I will do in the future. For that, I can say I'm not hiding behind any mask.
Now to learn to deal with conflict with relationships. I want to be more assertive and be able to speak my mind (in a respectful and kind manner). I'm not a mean and nasty person behind my mask - I'm simply a person who swallows a lot of distress and emotions and deals with my emotions by sometimes eating to ease my pain and stress. I'd like to take that mask off.