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Hiding Behind a Mask

Sunday, November 02, 2014

Our challenge this weekend is to write about a mask we hide behind. I think to a degree we all do this. I want to be liked - I don't like conflict. I am a peace keeper. But that causes me to not be myself at times. Rather than make a scene, I hide it. I don't let me shine through.

I want to identify with something. when it comes to my fitness journey, I realize I still have a desire to identify with the athlete of my youth. I ran cross country, and always enjoyed hiking and walking in solitude or with a few good friends. I want to get back to that.

I like doing what I'm doing. I don't hide behind that - I believe in doing something that is sustainable. That's why you won't see me doing any kind of fad diet. Just the thought of eating things I wouldn't eat forever just makes me feel ill. I want to live my lifestyle now, just as I will do in the future. For that, I can say I'm not hiding behind any mask.

Now to learn to deal with conflict with relationships. I want to be more assertive and be able to speak my mind (in a respectful and kind manner). I'm not a mean and nasty person behind my mask - I'm simply a person who swallows a lot of distress and emotions and deals with my emotions by sometimes eating to ease my pain and stress. I'd like to take that mask off.
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  • COOLMAMA11
    I loved your blog Naomi, I think we all have a mask we wear to cover one's emotions, I have been accused of being too out-spoken, I believe in telling the truth, and saying it like it is..a habit I have been trying to "soften" in my older yrs lol! I have learned in time that we can't do anything about some situations, so we can stress all we want to no avail.....Better to just let some things go! emoticon
    687 days ago
  • 40_4ME4FAMILY
    emoticon keepers are so important! Truly, you are needed and valuable! I think it's a skill! However, YOU are important too, and shouldn't have to "hide". You are on the right track simply by acknowledging what is going on, and seeking alternatives to food. It sounds like you enjoy fitness activities. I know I can't do what I used to, but I have found that fitness often boosts my mood and my ability to turn away from food as a comfort. emoticon
    1899 days ago
  • EMMACORY
    Great blog. It is important to be true to oneself. emoticon
    1904 days ago
  • BETZYGIRL
    What great insight! And I agree with you, taking the mask of avoiding conflict at all cost is a great goal to work toward. It seems when we avoid conflict it doesn't seem to change anything about the situation, it just is harmful to us. You can do this!
    1911 days ago
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