Todays gift to myself
Thursday, November 13, 2014
After being down for awhile and being lifted by my friends on here I have decided I need to make sure I give myself a gift each day. Why? Because I deserve happiness. And it helps motivate me.
Today the gift I give myself is patience. I will let myself go at my own pace and not beat myself up. I will enjoy the snow falling and treasure it. I will do well eating and manage a low carb treat to not feel deprived. I will watch a funny show and ride my bike to exercise and pick up my mood. All of this packaged with patience will be today's beautiful, thoughtful gift to myself.
Last night I got to thinking that I have a week until my next blood tests. I was feeling the pressure up until that moment. I decided yes I should keep going and trying my best but one week of beating myself up was not going to change those results a whole lot. It tests the past 3 months. And beating myself up was just going to make my stress higher, blood pressure higher and blood sugar numbers higher...and that is not doing me any favors. So ... I am letting it go. I am going to stop putting pressure on myself and be patient like any other day. This will allow myself to relax my thoughts and breathing. Allow me to succeed more easily. What ever the outcome of the test results I know I have made some huge changes and for the better. And if I am still confined to a 3 month check, so be it. I will just keep trying my best every day. That is all I can ask of myself realistically. Nothing more since my best is my best.
Thanks girls for being there for me to lean on. I really needed it. I am blessed to have the both of you for Spark friends. You mean so much to me.