Success for me!
Friday, November 14, 2014
My friends on here know I have been going through a tougher time than usual. With their help and some extra work on my own emotionally I am now able to say I have had 2 consecutive days of success.
I figured out I was putting too much pressure on myself. Not only to pick up at the top where I left off but to fix any imperfections in one week. Realistically both too much to ask myself given what I was going through.
So a couple days ago I started to realize this and said "ok, one foot in front of the other!" I focused on food and cheering myself up. Then yesterday I focused more on food and doing tougher exercise for a shorter amount of time. And it worked! My blood sugars went back down to below 100, and the scale went back down to where I was before all of this. I was so happy. I did get a hit through the mail that made me very sad. A letter from my cousin thanking me for driving 14 hours to be at the funeral. All that she said I could handle with a cringe in my heart but what got me to cry...she said "I love you and send hugs to you my sweet Katy." I began to blubber at that line. She only says that stuff if she is hurting. And I don't want her to hurt but I know it is part of the process. And there is nothing I can do to change that except love her and be there for her. Makes me tear up thinking of it. SO! DEEP BREATH!!!! She knows I would do anything for them.
Today! I am still focusing on eating the way that works for me. (No sweet goodie for me yesterday either shockingly!) I am going to focus on doing the exercise I did yesterday and maybe add more. And I am going to focus on drinking more liquids. I got a knew tea pot and have been having fun with that. I am going to just put one foot in front of the other. And know what ever I make a point of doing, is ok. And I wont punish myself if I don't do more at this time because I love me. I know I am working hard. I know I WILL get to where I need to be if I just keep going forward. I know I will be back at the top of my game in time and it is ok to go at my own pace to get there.