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Saturday, November 15, 2014

What a rough time I have been having. But I choose to leave that all behind me and tread forward towards my goals. And success is just around the corner! I weighed myself today and I am now 195.6! That is the lowest I have been in I don't know how many years! It feels so good. A little scary because I, realistically, know it will fluctuate. But I will take it! It gives me hope. That, along with my blood sugar numbers being in check has me kind of getting my hopes up. Which is also scary because they typically fall when I get so confident. So, here I am teetering on that confidence. A "Wow! I did it!" "Be careful when you get your hopes up they usually fall hard" type a moment. I think I will take the chance and stay on top of the confidence this time. I think it is ok! I think if I keep doing what I am doing they will at least stay the same.
SIGH~ this was a major goal to myself to get here. It took me 7 months to lose 10% of my body weight from when I got on here in May. I will soak this up today, and know it is possible. It is scary to think of a goal at a lower weight than this. I guess try for another 10% off. I do need to see what my A1c did over the past 3 months. My goal for that is 6.5. It was 7 in July. It was 8 in April. And even if it didn't go down this time, but stayed the same. I will consider that a win...for now. With my weight going down it is bound to go down too. Gosh, I am stunned that I have lost 10% from where I started. It seemed like such a high goal that I broke down into smaller goals. Dang it! I am going to hug myself and give myself a pat on the back and say " GREAT JOB KATE! YOU DID IT!" I owe that to myself considering how hard I am on myself and how my biggest habit is to sabotage any good in my life. I don't have that feeling today, I have the feeling of hope and motivation.

Now that I have allowed myself to accept my success...head down, nose to the grindstone, and keep moving forward knowing I did not cure all things. Keep at it, keep moving forward, for it is a long hike up the mountain to where I need to be. I WILL get there though! I will get there!

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    I think you just like hearing me tell you that I'm proud of you haha!! Way to go, girl! I think breaking your goals up into mini goals is the way to do it. It helps maintain a positive attitude and also helps you not to kick your own butt so much when you don't quite reach your goal. You are amazing!!
    2342 days ago
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    Hello - gorgeous bear -
    its not the length of the journey as the journey is a lifetime journey . Everyday embraced with Joy.
    Sometimes I can Fluctuate 7 lbs. but , I also know that ours bodies process energy differently so if I am eating well and drinking water that number will balance itself out .
    Congrats on your success for the weight loos as well as the blood sugar emoticon
    Great news - we all face those fears after while we get through that as well and start to really know ourselves better and begin trust in ourselves once again emoticon
    Hugs Karen
    2342 days ago

    Comment edited on: 11/15/2014 3:41:22 PM
  • JOLIEN99
    I know how you feel about being at your lowest but scared bc it could fluctuate. I also am at my lowest then I have been in 3 years. Finally out of the 190's that I have been in for so many months.

    We can do this.

    Congrats on hitting your lowest, now make another goal and you will accomplish that aslo. Good luck emoticon
    2343 days ago
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