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Reflection

Saturday, November 15, 2014

Last August, I made a personal decision to not only get healthy, but to get stronger and have more stamina. I decided that I have choices about what I how I participate in this again process. I enjoyed all the younger years. Now, it is time to be the best this body and mind will allow in my remaining years.

My commitment was very real. Funny how having death knock at your door gets your attention. I am proud of the hard work that I have put into that decision. On the physical front, going to the gym and working with a Personal Trainer for 10 weeks has paid off. I am not only thinner, I am stronger and have more stamina. Yes, my balance is even better. (Special thanks to Evelyn's TNT for playing a part in that.) My Plantar Fasciitis that plagued me is much better.

Foodwise, I have maintained my low carb Intuitive Eating (IE). I have learned a lot about my eating behaviors. The good news is that I really hate to feel full. It's hard to binge without feeling crummy, so that's a good thing that I hope to use in the future.

I can't talk about what is working without mentioning how much sharing my experiences and participating fully on Spark People has benefitted me. I thrive on the challenges and sharing of our personal struggles. I take my commitments very seriously.

i recognize that this is a process and I believe that the joy is in the journey, so I'm going to work at enjoying that process. I also know of the importance of tweaking what is working and what is not continually. While there is a lot that is working and I feel that I have the 'secret' to losing weight for me: low carb IE eating, NO sugar, walking/exercise daily, there are sneaky little pitfalls and devils on my shoulder that put stumbling blocks in the way.

I know that I am vulnerable for a binge and falling off my plan at any time. It is important that I remember that and don't get too cocky. I have realized that nighttime is my absolute weakest time. I guess I have had years of 'feeding' my emotions, pampering poor Carol after her bad or good day, and escaping into food, or as it became total overeat. I have to be totally honest with myself and say that I like to overeat. That is shocking to me.

Obviously, that means I have to be very watchful of nighttime eating. i now have protein bars as an evening snack. It usually fulfills that habit and need. I am focusing on the IE part of eating and being aware of my hunger level. My hope is that it becomes such a habit of just being satisfied and hating that full feeling that I leave overeating behind.

Another way that I must continue to work is exercising. Committing to exercising every day is important to me. I do have to build in rest days, but those rest days still mean doing TNT, yoga, floor weights or even a 10 min walk........something. When I don't feel well or life utterly gets in the way of that plan, it is okay. I don't beat myself up about it. I also am working on letting go of the days that I drift off plan. The key thing is to get back on. To pick up the mantle of my commitment and go forward.

As far as doing things out of my comfort zone goes, all of the above!! Just kidding, actually it is all becoming very comfortable. I am choosing for my BLC requirement to be totally out of my comfort zone by eating IE and having NO SUGAR during my trip home for Thanksgiving. I will be with my family and lots of temptations, but I am armed with my own commitment to myself and my Spark friends who are joining me.

The journey continues. The tweaking continues. Life is very good.

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  • no profile photo CD23858752
    I thoroughly enjoyed your blog and the open and sincere way you write. I also have to watch evening snacking. Hot tea helps me
    397 days ago
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    1930 days ago
  • RDEE22
    Go Carol. Have watched your journey, you are emoticon

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    1931 days ago
  • KATELJM
    Carol, your comment, "Nothing like having death knock at your door", resonated with me. This go-round, like you, I have been dedicated to making myself as healthy and strong as possible. When our hunger sensors work, IE is such a friend.

    Your progress in BLC26 has been amazing! Your dedication to your program has paid off!
    1931 days ago
  • PREDEL
    My IE sister, this is a great blog. I so identify with everything you're saying. I'd like to join you in your Thanksgiving challenge. Holidays are always my 'off diet' days, doing super 'good the days before so I can eat what I want the day of. But that's changed with IE. As I'm cooking Thanksgiving dinner, my challenge is to make it as healthy as possible for me so I can eat what I want. That's going to be quite the challenge and I'm excited about it!

    Great work on this blog. You are really rockin' this BLC!

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    1931 days ago
  • 1CRAZYDOG
    Awesome, Carol! Proud of you!!
    1931 days ago
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