2015 - Year of Change
Friday, December 26, 2014
We had a wonderful Christmas yesterday with Family. My sister said in a conversation that this is the year for change. We all knew what she meant, she meant that we will have kids in our house soon, and the life we have now, will be no more, it will be full of trials, tribulations, joy, heartache, love, etc. We are adopting foster kids and we are now licensed and will begin getting matched very soon.
But as I think of that statement, it means a lot more to me. Yes 2o15 needs to be the year of change.
Two months ago I saw my Mentor. I have not seen Marie in over 20 years. She was a woman that helped me grow in my spirituality and the Lord. I was embarrassed when she asked me where I was worshiping now, and I told her I was currently attending church. I was no longer the 20 year old that wanted to go to Amsterdam to preach to the sinners.
But Since then I have started praying again. I have only missed three day's that I haven't prayed. I thank the Lord everyday that He walked beside me or carried me that day, and thank him that he allowed me to wake up. I have not been feeling well lately, and have been quite afraid. But about week ago, I had a really busy day of Christmas baking, and even though I was totally exhausted I felt a peach that I have not felt in a long time. I have also felt better then I was. I told God I didn't deserve a miracle, but what every he could do would be great. I feel God has answered that prayer. I believe in Miracles, but I also don't think God always chooses to show himself that way. I truly BELIEVE that God is going to make my knees better, and will give me the energy that I need to make it to the pool, and with his help and my effort, I will get better and will be able to walk with out my canes, and start living again..
I look forward to being a better person in 2015 and more focused on me. Even though we have a life changing experience coming with our adoption of Foster Kids but, it will be the best for all of us, if I work on me.
With the help of Sparkpeople, my sparkfriends, family and God. Yes indeed 2015 will be the year of change.
May God Bless you and give you a Wonderful New Year.