Tuesday, January 13, 2015
Today, I am tossing around an idea for a goal that I heard somewhere. I don't like to set BIG direct goals for myself because I will usually derail myself. But MAYBE, I MIGHT, keep this idea in the back of my head.
The idea is to try to aim to lose the amount of pounds in age by my birthday at the end of the year or just the end of the year. So! I am currently 42 so I will set that as the number. By the end of the year I will be 43. So 43 lbs would be bonus or if I am able to get beyond that is BIG bonus!
I am big on being happy at any success I have. Any little thing is a big step in the right direction. I don't like to limit myself to success. I feel like me having that 42 lb goal is limiting myself. Plus, this past year I lost about 40 lbs. THAT BLEW MY MIND! And losing another 42 lbs just is really hard for me to wrap my head around because that would mean I am very close to my normal healthy weight. And I haven't been there for 20+ years! I do feel like that person IS inside me. But I AM secure in whatever weight I have gotten up to. I have learned to love myself no matter what. And with that the reversal of the scale is a new way of loving myself no matter what. And right now, for me to accomplish that I do it one pound or step forward at a time. I look at it as crossing a very high bridge. I am just taking one step at a time. Not taking more than a glance at the end, but knowing it is there. I know if I keep shuffling forward I will make it.
Anyway, I guess I will do what I tend to do...stick it in the back of my brain. It is there as momentum. But I have smaller goals that will get me to that same spot that are better for me to focus on. Being mindful of each moment of each day. Mindful of my movement and exercise. Mindful of my food choices and amounts. Mindful of times of day I eat. Mindful of the equation that it takes to lower my blood sugar and blood pressure. Mindful of how far I have come and how good I AM doing. Mindful that I am lowering my insulin slowly but am lowering it!
I couldn't be happier at what I have accomplished. I have a VERY long way to go! And I have many stresses in my life that trigger things I need to work on. BUT I AM WORKING ON THOSE THINGS! I am taking action. STRIKE THAT! STILL taking action! And that is the best thing I can do for myself and others. Doing nothing is going to do just that....do nothing for me or anyone else.
Revisiting deep breathing, time to stretch, allowing for enough sleep, hydrate half my weight in ounces, and improve relationships with people, food, and health. Improving me.