I haven't been here in a really long time...
~ My husband passed away on 12-22-14
~ I think I was in a mid-life crises before this happened and I think it's still in full swing. I am more confused about who I am now and what I believe than I ever was as a teenager.
~ It's time for me to take charge of my life and make it what I know it can be.
~ I don't know how to begin.
~ Blogging has been a huge help to me in the past.
~ I feel like I've lost part of me, yet, I think the best is yet to come.
WHAT TO DO??
I cannot promise I will stay here on spark or that I will blog everyday, but right now I feel so confused about my emotions, including the lack of emotions. I DO know that when I blogged here, I was more open about the real me and my wants, wishes, desires than anywhere else in my life. So, I think the first thing to start with, even if I pick up current blogging again is to go back and read my blogs from the beginning. Even if I'm not the person I was when I wrote them, maybe it will help me figure out who I am now or at least who I want to be.
Also, I think a logical place to start is my health. Regardless of who I turn out to be, 325 pounds (AGAIN) is simply unhealthy! I already KNOW that I will feel better if I drink more water, eat healthier and exercise. So, water is always my starting point... it's my babystep to bigger and better things and right now, it feels like all I can concentrate on is water and reading my old blogs...
Well, now you know where I am in the journey called life, I think it's called "Massive Hormonal State of Confusion!"