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Tuesday, January 20, 2015

Tonight I had a little cheat night and though it wasn't to reward myself for losing four pounds, it felt nice. It felt soo good to tell myself to choose one meal to splurge on. And I did so without guilt. See guilt is the key to my binging I've finally realized!! I used to feel guilty constantly about what I ate and how much I ate; I felt ashamed to be eating because my body is fat. (I am not fat, I am a person) Something that I have learned these past few days is that when I make good food choices, it makes me feel good! When I stay within my calorie range, it makes me feel proud! When I am able to enjoy one serving of junk food and not pine for more, I feel on top of the world. I am gaining control over what I eat, and how much I allow myself to have because I no longer feel guilty about fueling my body. I no longer eat four times the serving suggestion and then feel so guilty that my mind pushes me to just keep eating to cover up the guilt. This is huge for me. So allowing myself the occasional splurge makes me feel stronger than ever because when I let myself splurge a little, I stay in control and do not go off on a huge binging spree as I once did. Eventually, I know that I will choose to splurge less and less. I am starting to notice that if I go too far over my calorie range my body feels yucky. I feel really stuffed, bloated, and gassy (too much info, sorry but it's true!). I really don't enjoy it. I am thankful that I finally recognize this and I am learning to do what feels good to my body, and I am listening to it; not my taste buds or urge to overeat or binge. These revelations are helping me stay on track with my journey, and are also motivating me to push harder. I made my first goal a small goal; lose fifty pounds this year and I intend to smash it!
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  • WEWRTFO
    Congratulations for choosing change. Your doing great, keep focused & stay motivated! About binge eating, that was me my fist 49 years of my life. In fact constant hunger issues and eventual uncontrollable food eating binges. Since no artificial sweeteners and no added sugar over a year ago, end of hungry all the time syndrome and not one single day having the urge to binge loosing over 150 pounds with natural eating habits. Which is 100 % responsible in my case a successful weight loss transformation for life vs having no chance because of the constant hunger issues and eventually uncontrollable eating binges that were once Unavoidable. Something to consider if you find yourself struggling. Wish you the best of luck! emoticon
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