Excuses and Resolve
Thursday, January 29, 2015
Sometimes when life takes over and gets chaotic, I think a lot of us tend to put our own self care and our own wants and needs on the back burner. I am often guilty of this, and have done this through the winter BL challenge I have been involved in over these last weeks.
First it was too insane at work. Then it was issues at home within my relationship, coupled with work stress. Then issues with my kids. Then I got really ill with a horrid stomach flu for nearly a week. And seasonal depression throughout.
I am not saying these things are not real, or that they are not legitimately affecting me. I am not saying that it is not okay to go to bed when you are truly ill. What I am saying is it is so easy to focus on these things, rather than taking care of myself. There are a million and one articles out there that speak of how we should put ourselves first. I read them, and agree. Then I go right on putting everyone and everything ahead of myself. Then I wonder why emotional eating starts to enter into it...
I have actually reached a point of anger with myself. Why the self sabotage? I know what I want and what my goals are, but yet continue to act in ways that will not help me to achieve them.
I wrote this morning in a post on my group chat thread..."Excuses do not burn calories or drop pounds". It will be my new mantra. It will be my desktop background on my work pc. It is also going to be posted on my bathroom mirror. It is time to start treating myself and my goals as though I deserve success. I can only succeed if I put myself first- and I will have so much more to give to others, if I just finally take care.