It's never easy

When I started my weight loss journey back in 2010 - I didn't really know what I was getting in to. I know I wanted to lose weight and I didn't have the tools or the knowledge.

Spark helped with that. Along with Google. I learned a lot. I learned that I need to set realistic goals. I found out that I needed to MOVE with exercise. And the biggest thing I learned was why it was so hard to keep the weight off. All those fat cells that were happily reproducing in my body don't go away when I lose. They sit there like little evil creatures, waiting for their chance.

If I would have known back when I was "in shape" - I might have worked harder at not eating and drinking so much.

But the past is past. I cannot change it and I refuse to be dragged down by it. I admit to myself that I am the one that put me in this position and only I can get myself out.

However, it is hard! I need to continually remind myself that I didn't gain all this weight over night and it is not going to come off over night either.

I am NOT doing diets - I am eating healthy. I get cravings though. Just like today. I made chocolate chip cookies for the office party. I ate ONE and will call it good. I cannot give up 100% on everything, that is just silly. I CAN have the inner strength to restrict myself.

Plus, I know I have an apple, banana, and fantastic salad that is waiting for me for snacks and lunch.

There are some days that I just want to curl up into a ball and cry because it seems so hard to lose this weight. I just have to accept that I'm human and have days that seem to chew me up and spit me out. On days like that, I know that tomorrow will be a better day. It may or not be but at least it gets me though the rough spots.

So - all in all - it is NOT easy. I have to remember that I have the tools and ability to do this. It will take time and patience and the end result will be great. Plus, I set a goal for myself to lose 100 pound by Oct so I can get a new knee. That is doable and to have this constant ache and pain go away is a great reminder of just why I need to stay vigilante.

We all have our own goals. They might be large or small. We just need to be true to ourselves and know that, while it's never easy, it CAN be done.

Onwards...