2-20-15 Anti Binge Tools?
Friday, February 20, 2015
Funny to think that I do binge eat and know I do it and know I shouldn't do it but can't stop myself mid moment. And to think that there might be some tools out there for me to not start it in the first place.
I have thought about the triggers that coax me into binge eating but never the tools. I joined a group a couple days ago and have been quietly poking around in it to see if there was anything that would spark a light bulb in my head and intrigue me to do some research to help myself in areas that I have never thought of. I am starting with two simple things that I feel somewhat stupid for not thinking of myself. #1 track each day I do not binge eat. #2 tools for anti binge eating. The first is fairly simple to think about and that gives me something to focus on that is goal oriented. I do well with the, here is what you need to do then do it. The second...not so easy. What does tools for this mean? I always thought it meant WHY did I do it? My answer is anger and feeling dismissed. Ok, problem located. Now, what are the tools??? I laugh cuz I feel like I am stuck in a room that is sealed full of people talking to me in a language I do not understand. So I look up on the internet in the small amount of time I had at the time " Tools for anti binge eating" , because that is how it was worded where I read about it. Things like lipstick that tastes bad, gum, mouth spray, toothpaste came up. I thought to myself...this can't be really the tools. The place where I saw the tools was on a challenge for this group. No real explanation, just to use your tools. So that was not really any help except to spark the light bulb in my mind.
So, today if Friday. I do have places to go and things to do and a sick child my hubby is coming home to take care of so I can fulfill my obligations. I will find time this weekend to figure out what at least one tool to not binge eat is. And if you are reading this and know some please, by all means, share! I don't think I am looking for things to put in my mouth that taste bad to detour me from binging. I think I am looking for thinking tools. I am not sure distraction is one. But maybe it is. Other than that I am very interested to know what actual tools are. I imagine they are connected to WHY I do it. Again, not looking for things that taste bad. When I talk about binge eating I don't mean that I snack in the evening, or eat a little too much. I mean the secretive shameful never let anyone see me do this can put away an astonishing amount of what I know is bad for me when I am angry or feeling dismissed kind of binging.
Even if I am a silent group member, I am glad that I went on there. It made me realize that I had not looked at certain things that could be so easy to help me. Now, to help myself further by doing some research!