Wednesday, March 04, 2015
feeling like I might actually be able to reach my goal despite all the chaos of the living situation at the moment with being stuck indoors everday esp now that my car has been dead since October!.
Other then that I've been exclusively breastfeeding for 14 months and now not as often as before,so I feel I can really focus more on losing weight now, hope..After I had my daughter I went from about 235 pregnant (192 before I found out) To 208 pounds after she was born.and then to 225lbs to 215lbs,so needless to say my weight was all over..
I'm dying to get back on track,it's frustrating that I worked my ass off over a year from 245lbs size 18/20 to 181lbs and a size 15,I was so happy that I did it all by myself and I feel like it's going to be so much harder to lose 50-60pounds all over again with my situation being how it is and not being able to go out or to the park or anything,just stuck at home with a one year old and 5 year old all day I wish we could go to a park or something but we can't and it just adds to my stress and depression and I guess it makes me eat more and just not have the drive.
On the positive I worked out everday this week so far! Thanks to SPARKPEOPLE,I try to aim for 5 mins at a time or longer if I can get the baby distracted since I can't get her to sleep without rocking her still :(
Funny thing is that I've browsed through spark people but never really used it as much but now I find it to be extremely motivating!,I had such a welcoming expirence on the community boards it really helps to keep sight of my goals when I can find others who are aiming for the same thing and I truly hope I can find the mental willpower to stop overeating because that's what's killing me I have no issues working out when I have free time for kids to do so but food is just always there and that's something I really have to fight right now.