The last six months have been rough.
Emotional. financial, difficulties created turmoil, depression in my life.
There was one week where I could hardly get out of bed.
I just didn't want to deal with all that was happening.
I'm a very private person.
I never discuss much about my personal life.
But when I felt my life was falling apart. I needed to talk to someone.
I kept asking myself why? Why is all this happening?
I chose to pray , ask God for guidance .
One by one over a length of time all the pressing issues were resolved. There are still some family problems, but those are more complicated and hopefully will workout.
It took a lot out of me.
I didn't handle the pressures as well as I could have or thought I should have.
I thought after losing so much weight and the knowledge that food was as addictive as any drug. Using food to numb my feelings, would never happen again.
Well .I was wrong.
I found all the old excuses to eat or eat too much, or the wrong choices were still there.
Fortunately I didn't slip as much as I could have .
I knew in the back of my mind I had to take control. had to make an effort to get in some exercise and eat better. Knowing and doing are two very different words.
I had Titan to think of and didn't want him to suffer just because I was falling apart.
I'm so happy to have him, he was my warmth and love through many morning.
When I didn't want to budge out of bed, he would wiggle up with his little warm body. give me a few wet kisses and tilt his head with one ear perked up and look at me with a questionable look. as if to say" What's up, lets go for our walk."
Or he would jump out of bed and a few minutes later I would hear him by the bedside with his ball in his mouth wanting me to play ball.
I throw the ball in the hall and he run's to find it, bringing it back to me. he can play ball for quite some time.
So you can see he's a real joy for me.
I have been on this life changing journey since Jan. 2010.
I know I will always be working on making the right choices,
My weight might go up and down some, but if it's not too much off my base then I will deal with it and still enjoy my life. I am not going to let my weight as long as I am healthy define me or my life.
Now that it's Spring. I thought it was time to clean, purge closets and maybe find a few new items.
You know me, won't spend too much for clothes. I am a thrift shopper.
It's been 6 months since I was in a thrift store, I broke that record yesterday.
Took some donations to Value Village . I went in and here's what I found.
A real cute watch. it has two straps, brown leather and one in gold. It's a double wrap band. When I saw it thought of the wrap bracelets I have been making.
I knew I could always use the leather straps for bracelets.
But the watch runs and I love it. I never usually wear a watch, for I don't like to be reminded of time.
Well I have used up a morning, not much done.
Going to JoAnn's use my 60% off coupon. Probably hit Michaels too, 40% off and beads 40 or 50% off. Never can have too many beads. Smile!!
I got a three day craft show next weekend. 27th thru 29th. In Roseburg at the fairgrounds.
If anyone lives in that area, would love to see you. Stop on by. It's a very fun show, entertainment , food and all handcrafted goods from some outstanding artisans.
Take care, enjoy the weekend.
Peace and Love