Wednesday, April 15, 2015
I waited 22 years to be reunited with the love of my life. And when we finally reconnected I gave up everything I could lay claim to in this world for the opportunity to tell him I never quit thinking about him, that I always have and always will have a deep longing for him that is more powerful than any other emotion I have felt in my life.
We had four years together this time. I thought everything was perfect, or as close to it as I was ever going to get. About 2 1/2 weeks ago, he told me he doesn't feel any love for me anymore. And he hasn't for the past year. I was not prepared for that to come out of his mouth at all. I cannot pinpoint any prior indication that anything was even wrong. I was absolutely shocked and I don't shock easily. It took about a week for the shock to wear off and reality to set in. He doesn't love me anymore. And there isn't a thing I can do about it.
All of my hopes and plans for the future are irrelevant now. I have no idea what I should be doing. The only I can do most of the time is cry and mourn the loss of my love, my best friend, my partner, my soul mate, my lover, my everything.
So what now? I do not have a clue.