I hate these entries.......
Tuesday, May 05, 2015
Hi All. It has been almost 3 years since I have been back on here. 3 years and every single pound is back on my body that I lost. Every. Single. Pound. I hate this entry for so many reasons. I hate it because I do not want to be writing that I have gained, I want to be writing that I am down again or, at least, maintaining. I do not want this to be a "Here I am again" blog because I hate that I AM HERE AGAIN! Grrrrr!
Anyway......here I am. I have joint pain again and I have gained all that I lost back and during a recent period of absolute fear and loathing of the scale, I briefly stepped on it and was a higher weight than I have ever been without being pregnant. I avoided the scale for a long time after that and did not venture back onto it until I knew I had lost at least a little bit. *SIGH* I wish I had better things to say. I wish I had a plan, but I really don't. The only thought in my head right now is that I need to come back here to Spark. If I am reading about the success or struggles of others everyday, maybe that will be just the motivation I need. It worked three years ago when I lost 40+ pounds......I hope and pray it can work now too.
Have a great night. Tomorrow will be better.