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Wow - It Has Been A While

Wednesday, May 06, 2015

It has been over a year since I have been here. To say that the past few years have been a struggle is an understatement.

I just returned home after a week's vacation across the country. I had a fabulous time with my children and grandchildren. It has been 2 1/2 years since I had been home to see them and it was long overdue. While we enjoyed each other's company and I got to meet my newest grandchildren, one theme was blaring... at least from my point of view.

I have gained all of my weight back.... plus about 30 pound for insurance!


To say I had a very high level of anxiety about the plane ride was an understatement. Some think I am afraid of flying... that could not be the furthest from the truth. I love to fly. I love takeoff, landing, and even the turbulence. No, my friends... I am not afraid of flying. I am terrified of the reactions and words of those around me when they see me walking down the aisle looking for my seat. I am afraid of the comments my neighbor will make when I am not exactly successful at staying our of their space no matter how hard I try to keep my arms crossed and my shoulders "in" during the 5 hour flight. I am terrified of the condescending look that I sometimes get when I ask for the seat belt extension.

Well.... I am here to say this,

I WILL NOT BE AFRAID ANYMORE!!! THIS IS THE LAST TRIP WHERE I LET MY WEIGHT AND PHYSICAL CONDITION OVER SHADOW MY JOY!!!!

My oldest daughter is extremely supportive and has encouraged me to read the book "It Starts With Food". We are doing the Whole30 together.... Well, in all honesty, she got a couple of days' head start on me.

Saturday is my Birthday.... I have no doubt that there will be a festive celebration with cake, etc at work. You know how it is.. anyone's birthday is an excuse for the office potluck. With that said... with the exception of the office celebration, I am starting tomorrow. I have my grocery list made out, my daughter's number on speed dial, and my husband on notice. I threw away all of my artificial sweeteners, processed convenience meals, and bread today.

Oh.. you may know my daughter... her username is LILBLKDRESS09. Feel free to stop by and say hello.

Let's do this! I refuse to die before I am 50!
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  • PUGLOVER1999
    I am so glad to see you back, Diana! I came back in late September. It is hard, but I am more determined this time to reach my goal and stay there, no matter how long it takes.

    Give yourself some positive self talk for having the courage to come back! DO NOT GIVE UP! Remember that quote (I don't know who said it first.) that a journey of 1000 miles begins with one step!

    That reminds me of a quote that has kept me going (however slowly) this time around. It is:

    "You never know what's around the corner. It could be everything. Or it could be nothing. You keep putting one foot in front of the other, and then one day you look back and you've climbed a mountain."

    I love that because I lose weight so slowly, I cannot tell for a long time that I have made any progress. Then one day I noticed that my "fat skirt" was too big and I gave it away! My other skirts are loser, but not too big yet. I have been stuck at the same weigh for a long time, but I know someday my current skirts will be too big, too!

    I'm not saying these things to brag. (I have NOTHING to brag about!) I hope to encourage you!

    I'M SO GLAD YOU ARE BACK!

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    PS: Belated HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Just think of how much smaller and happier you are going to be next year! :)
    2124 days ago

    Comment edited on: 5/11/2015 12:15:49 AM
  • LILBLKDRESS09
    Yay mama! You can do it! I love you and remember I will visit you every 50lbs. emoticon
    2128 days ago
  • -POOKIE-
    Welcome back.

    I have gained back a lot of my weight as well while I was pregnant, all day nausea only helped by carbs like potatoes didn't serve me well.

    Here's to success!
    2128 days ago
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  • RGEETING
    Happy Birthday! (early)

    Good plans in place - and even with the office party, use moderation! :) emoticon
    2128 days ago
  • BETH4SUCCESS
    Way to go! You can do it!
    2128 days ago
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