Thursday, May 21, 2015
Just now I had the chance to view my test results. I am not happy with them. Granted they could be much worse. I need to really watch my food choices. I need to keep my stress level low and be vigilant with my sleep amount. My fasting number was pretty high at 180 which shocked me since my testing number wasn't that high. High stress the night before right before bed might be the cause. And my A1c went from 6.8 to 6.9. Not a huge hike but may be enough to lose my 6 month privilege. I find out what the doctor says next Thursday. I pray I get to keep my 6 month privilege.
I have a big problem with food. Choices and amounts. I really need to wrangle that when I am stressed. I suspected a rise due to the depression I had during the winter from the deaths that happened. Also the household changed with its stress level. I am trying to figure out how to handle that.
I am disappointed yet not surprised. But I can not wallow in it. I have to attack my issues harder and smarter. Is that the correct grammar? HA HA. Really get in touch with self control. Really work harder on self discipline. I know I can do it. I think staying off the scale may work for me so I just keep going. Keeping off the scale may propel me to just keep going, it doesn't matter, just keep going. As the weight falls off, the blood sugar will go down and the A1c will go down too. Make the right choices! Eat the right amounts! Don't forbid things but do not over indulge! Accept the fact that weaning the insulin may take longer. And that is o.k.!
I need to do, what I need to do, to make me the best me I can be.
One week until the doctor and the decision he makes concerning me.