Off and On
Wednesday, June 24, 2015
It seems like I am in a rhythm. I do really well and then I fall off the wagon, then I do really well and then I fall off the wagon. There really is some sort of pattern here. I do know when I fall off it is because there is not a lot of food to eat in the apartment at the time, but I know somewhere in the back of my head there is always something I can eat that would be better than eating out. So maybe that is something I can work on mentally.
My weight has been slowly going up when it was going down, but I do not know where the weight is going. I know I am just getting over my monthly visit, maybe I am retaining some water from it? I know my stomach is not all that bloated. One good solid workout is not going to make me gain weight. I don't know, but I'm sure I will figure that out too. I know my eating out when I shouldn't be isn't helping, but it normally doesn't effect me like this.
On the bright side, my boyfriend, my cousin, and I have applied for a town home on Saturday. The check I wrote went through today so I am hoping that is good news. We are hoping to be out by late October. I will have more control over the food in the home and more space to exercise on nights I might not make it to the gym.
My friend is now a certified Zumba instructor, I joke with her about giving me free sessions, but I am slightly hopeful that she might. She is starting to hold classes now for the public and had an audition for an instructor at her gym. I find her to be motivating because after we graduated she put on weight and could never seem to get it off. After leaving a bad relationship and finding a man that treats her right and is also a health nut, he helped her to get right on track and she is looking fantastic! So proud of her. Also slightly jealous but I know I have no one to blame but myself for that, but I am working on it.
Just excited for everything that is happening, now I just need to get my eating under control again and I will start to see the results I want again.