Greetings to all my friends and team mates!
The last time I was here was the end of May. I wrote about having problems and trying to figure out what's going on. Well here's the diagnosis -
I have Cancer.
They found a mass in my pancreas, a spot on my spleen and possibly on my lung, which today I go in for a chest CT scan, and the lymph nodes around the pancreas are also affected.
I finally got my abdominal CT scan on June 4 and was called in on June 9 to discuss results, which after going through all the questions he gave me the news. So needless to say I've been quite busy getting orient into a new phase of medical operation I really didn't think I would have to deal with.
This news came out of no where. We both, my husband and I was not prepared although we kind of suspected. If nothing else at least I found out it wasn't just me making excuses for not doing my exercises or staying on track with my health. This was a relief.
So this week I met with my Cancer dr and he has order a PET scan and another biopsy to find out exactly what kind it is and where it's coming from. The way he explained it to me is that this type of cancer is a glandular caner of sorts. There is a gland or glands some where in my body producing secretions that are showing up as spots and in masses. He wants to find the source of what is going on in my body. (I'm not arguing over that!)
So, I have lost weight, which he has told me not to lose anymore and the fact that I need to put the weight back on in order to be healthy enough to go through all the procedures and treatment. The problem here is that I need to eat and I can't. When I eat a full meal it cause me excruciating pain because of the pressure on the pancreas.
Since I have trouble eating anyway, having this cancer is not making it any easier. As it was explained to me, the little bit that I do eat is just enough to sustain the life of the cancer living inside of me, but not enough to sustain me, myself. Go figure! But as they say it's a living thing, not for the good, but it's surviving off of my energy, my nutrients, my food, my blood, etc. as if I was carrying a baby.
So on top of the cancer, my diabetes and blood pressure numbers have dropped which they are a little concerned with, with it being about the pancreas.
It has not yet been 2 years since I had my last surgery and it's been since Sept. that I've been working at getting back involved with life after being out of commission for 6-7 years. So basically right now, I have to undo most of what I have strived so hard to do right and for my health.
Don't get me wrong, I will always continue working on the healthy side of my life but some things are going to take more time as I deal with all I am about to go through.
So my fight is not over. With everything I've been through, this is really just another drop in the bucket for me. And I do believe God will get me through this too.
I will be posting more as things continue to unfold for me.
I want to say thank you to all who have been reaching out to me. I've seen your emails and comments. And thank you for the sparkgoodies as well. I will be back and now that things are in motion I can come and visit more often.
Luv you guys and miss you all! May God bless you all for being such a great support system.
Until next time....