I am someone I can be proud of...
Tuesday, July 07, 2015
I have to do something I don't want to do.
But if I don't do it, I am not setting myself up for success.
So this is going to be one of THOSE blogs... owning up.
I wrote a blog on May 19 in order to get myself back on track. At the time, I was able to say that though exercise had kept me from gaining, my poor food choices were keeping me from reaching that goal of getting under 200.
Since then, I have struggled and tried, but have effectively stayed OFF the rails and off the scales. I have made about 60% good food choices, and continued to exercise at about the same percentage...which is just not enough. I finally had the courage to get back on the scale by saying to myself, "Erin, I love you...and you are only hurting yourself by neglecting the things you know you need. You can do this."
I knew my weight would be up... and frankly, I was a little surprise that it was not higher than it was. But DARN IT, I have to re-lose 15 pounds. I don't see it as failure. It truly is an opportunity to love and encourage myself right through this rough patch, but again...DARN IT.
I had the impulse to just wait, and not publicly admit to the gain. But that is not what this is about. This WHOLE journey is about being real. It is okay. I can do it. I am worth it. I have come too far to let myself down.
So, as soon as I hit POST BLOG...I am going back to my Spark Page to adjust my weight. I have to be honest with myself so that I am someone I can be proud of.