Today I'm Struggling
Friday, July 10, 2015
Today I am struggling. Two people in my family are having health issues that require them to be in places where they can get the care they need. They don't want to be in these places. They don't want to need care. They are blaming me for how they feel and for what is happening in their lives.
I get that what they are feeling isn't my fault. They are just venting their fear and anger and pain. Rationally I know I have tried to do what is the best, most loving and caring thing for them.
But the little voices in my head are telling me all their nasty words are really true. I am a bad person and nobody likes me. It is hard to make good choices when I don't feel good about myself. I know this is temporary and it isn't really my problem...but I have somehow let in this negativity and it feels heavier than any fat I have ever carried.