watching my goals being achieved
Thursday, July 16, 2015
working out daily, eating healthy, having less than one drink a day, being motivated to be healthy, taking care of myself...these are all goals of mine and they are being accomplished. by my husband.
he is riding his bike to work everyday and he's so serious and motivated about it. he doesn't drink much during the week because he knows it will effect his ride. he's eating well so he has energy to do the 18 miles round trip. why can't I do this? I feel like I'm sitting back and watching him live the lifestyle I want. I drink every night while he drinks his water and goes to bed early. we've swapped roles. I do not like it one bit! I mean, I like that he's being healthy, losing weight and passionate about it. but why can't I?! I feel like the pusher now. I offer him a beer, he says no, so I drink 3. I bring the junk food into the house. I drink too much and stay up too late. this used to be him!
how do I change this? how do I get my role back and join him in his new passion. why can't I?! where's my passion? my motivation? what's holding me back? and why, for crying out loud, did I take on this role?