All bypass preliminary stuff done
Tuesday, August 04, 2015
Finally last month all of my preliminary medical stuff for the gastric bypass was done, I was submitted for approval for the surgery, and approved a week later. Just waiting now to hear back on a date for my surgery.
I am not nervous yet, but I am sure I will be closer to surgery. Thats how it always works for me. I'm ok until I go in and they take me in that superbly clean room to do the surgery.
I know it sounds stupid, and it will especially to the dr, but i am going to take him aside and tell him that when he is doing the surgery to imagine that he is performing that surgery on his wife or his daughter. He should be doing that for everyone, but... My life will LITERALLY be in his hands, its on him if I live or die... Thats a huge amount of trust I am expected to blindly place in him. That is ridiculously hard for me to do. I know, to me, that that surgery will seem to only have been a second, but thats how anesthesia works LOL I will fall asleep and immediately i my mind awake in pain. Thats something I am unsure of what to expect... pain management. I like to think of myself as someone with a good pain tolerance, but... I have never had a surgery like that. Spose I can thank god for small favors like its supposed to be done laparascopically.
Today is an emotional day for me.
I miss Maurice now more than ever.