Saturday, August 22, 2015
It is nearing the END of August and I am looking around to where the summer went. It really flew by FAST! Too fast. I am feeling the spinning of everything whirling around me and I am struggling to keep my head straight.
Do the right thing! Do the right thing! Do the right thing! I chant to myself every minute of every day, as the punches of life swing at me and my family. I know this will hopefully stabilize soon. But man, the one two punch of life is really testing us.
The stress of so many things has me putting my focus in slow motion to make sure I keep doing the right thing in so many areas of my life. For myself, kids, husband, family, marriage, money, time, everything. I am trying to not be overwhelmed with worry about what is going on with my husband's work and how it is effecting us. I can tell I am holding in many emotions and trying to organize everything to make sense out of what to do.
I am keeping pretty good on eating well. Although this is really difficult for me to not eat junk food and over eat my life. I am concentrating on that not being the answer to all the issues. Exercise is really never too much of an issue if I tell myself to just do something. So I will give myself permission to feel okay with my stance with this for now considering all that is going on making it so much harder.
I find myself thinking a lot. Probably too much. Overthinking our issues. I just want them fixed and I can not control that. Hubby's work controls that currently. In the midst of his work challenges he has made time to better himself by getting more certifications for his career. I, do my best to support him. I also am learning to find my place right now.
Sigh~ About a week before my middle son moves back out, and my youngest starts a new school. Parental worries for them are normal. And at times are overwhelming even though I know deep down they will be okay. I just want them to thrive. I want them to be happy. I want that for everyone in my life. Including myself.
Just feeling a bit defeated yesterday and today. Feeling like no matter how hard I work, goals are just so hard to reach, virtually impossible. I know it will pass but the feeling is with me currently. Long couple of weeks, Long month that went too fast.