My progress (or lack thereof) while on Weight Watchers so far

Sunday, August 23, 2015

Hi SparkFriends! First, I feel so bad about not being as active on here as I used to be. I absolutely LOVE SP but sometimes it can be SO time-consuming! I definitely stay busy and don't always have time to reply to blog post comments, send goodies, upload pics, etc. so I've just been avoiding it altogether and letting the notifications pile up in my email in-box. BUT, I realize that being active on SP is SO helpful to my weight loss journey, so I'm recommitting myself to it today! I've been talking with my husband a lot recently about being more selfish on this weight-loss journey (in a good way, i.e. asking for help making time for myself), and one of those ways is for me to take a little time out of each day (or as much as I can) to log into SP and reconnect with old SparkFriends, read others' blog posts, post updates of my own, and generally beef up my motivation again. So here I am!

First of all, I mentioned before that I've been on Weight Watchers since March 28, 2015. I decided to join because:

1. I've put on about 30 more lbs since January 2013 when I decided to stay home full time with my son. (I already had about 30 to lose.) YIKES. I've tried several times to lose the weight on my own, but obviously, I've had to admit that I can't do this on my own.

2. I need help. I need guidance. I need a plan, and one that actually works for me. No more "30-day ab challenges" or "strictly Paleo for 3 months" or any other crazy thing I've been trying.

3. I have a very good friend who's been incredibly successful on WW and has lost about 50 lbs so far. It's taken her about a year, but she was always overweight and it's been amazing to see her journey. I wanted the same for myself.

4. I have a really bad binge-eating, sugar addiction problem and I was hoping WW could help me curb this. (It has, somewhat...)

Here's what I looked like the day I attended my first Weight Watchers meeting this spring and weighed in at 172.8 lbs:

So now I attend weekly meetings on Saturday mornings, I count PointsPlus instead of calories, and I earn activity Points for working out. I regularly wear my FitBit and track everything on the WW app. It works great. It's easy. You just have to stick with the program.

I've been good at this, sometimes. I really did a GREAT job in the first few weeks, but have really been off and on the plan a LOT recently. It's so discouraging to walk into a meeting knowing that you've gained and see that little +3.3 written on your weight log card. Every Saturday is a new chance to start over again, but I've been finding myself losing and gaining the same several pounds for most of the summer now.

Here's my progress so far. I took these pics yesterday. Not a noticeable, visible difference, but I at least know my legs are stronger from all the running I've been doing!

I know exactly what my problem is. I sabotage myself! I get in my own way. I buy trigger food - snacks loaded with sugar (cookies, gummy worms, chewy granola bars, candy, even Teddy Grahams) that I tell myself in the store I can resist. They're for my husband and son, so I will avoid them. I can portion. I can fit it into my plan. I can keep it on a top shelf. But the truth is, I eventually eat it, sometimes even that same day that I bought it. And I eat ALL of it. Definitely binge-eating at its finest. Ugh...

I also let slip-ups be an excuse to just quit tracking food altogether. I know I've probably already gained for the week, so a gain is a gain no matter how many pounds, right? Wrong. It's all mental, and I'm realizing its my way of "letting myself" get away with eating crap food. Quite simply put, it's easier to just give in and eat what you want than to put forth the effort to plan your meal, figure up your total PointsPlus value, log it in the app, and do the extra exercise I might need to compensate for the additional PP I just ate. And so I take the easy route, and continue to do so all week long. And then I step on the scale Saturday morning and beat myself up. Sigh. But I usually work really hard the next week and lose a little bit. But then I feel like I can "cheat a little" the next week because of the loss, and the cycle repeats itself.

I've been spinning my wheels like this for the past three months or so. I have all the tools and support I need to accomplish my goals and get into habits and a mindset that will have me continually losing each week, but I need to really dig deep and put forth 100% effort, not 100% for a few days and then 25% the rest of the week. When I stick to the plan, eat lots of fruits and veggies (zero PointsPlus!), get plenty of exercise in and accumulate Activity Points, log my food religiously, and don't have any sweets or trigger food in the house, I ALWAYS LOSE WEIGHT that week. (Funny how that works, right?!) :) It's so obvious. I just need to quit sabotaging myself and getting in my own way. I need to say goodbye to those foods and habits from the past that have tripped me up for so many years. I need to be consistent, unwavering, and STRONG. I also need to share my feelings, connect with others, help encourage people in my same situation and receive some encouragement back, and track my progress on this journey beyond a number in a log. That's why I'm back on SP blogging today and hopefully being more committed to being here with this great group of people more often.

So there ya go. That's what's up with me! I'll be blogging more regularly again, I promise. Thanks in advance for anyone who reads this. Please let me know if you've been in my situation before (the yo-yo, back and forth, spinning your wheels) and how you ultimately broke free from that. I'd absolutely love any advice you may have!

Thanks, SparkFriends! :)
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Member Comments About This Blog Post
    Happy to see you back. Oh yes I know where you are coming from. Lots of ups and downs. We all have to do it in our own way, just very important to never give up. Just keep going forward. Have patience. Make small goals and pretty soon you will get to where you want to be. emoticon
    1606 days ago
  • DAVIS_6311
    I think you are making great progress on this journey mentally, even if the scale isn't showing you what you'd like to see. You've tried other "diets" and realized they aren't for you. Which is great! I vowed to NEVER buy any of my trigger foods until it had been a couple months and I KNEW I wouldn't binge on them. I'd say it's worked 80% of the time. I still have weak moments but they are getting much fewer and further between. I also had issues with eating what my kids left behind but now when I'm tempted I just remind myself that I am NOT a garbage can and I've already eaten. You can't expect to be perfect 100% of the time. It's not possible in a world where we can't control everything, but if you can be perfect when you can control what you eat the other times won't affect your waistline or the number on the scale. Another tip I've found helpful is finding healthier alternatives to what I'm craving. There are tons of recipes here on SP to help you with that as well.
    1606 days ago
    First you just described me
    I have tried it all it works then I just give up.
    My first WW meeting is Thursday just added this a 3 month journey
    Will it work not sure
    3 days and it's tuff I am a nightly binge eater
    Let's do this check in weekly or daily if you want support
    1606 days ago
    Don't discount any progress or effort! Making consistent healthy choices is not always easy.

    Congratulations on arriving where you are now. Those 7 pounds are gone and you're going to show them that they aren't welcomed to come back!
    1607 days ago
    So glad to see you blogging again and back here at SP. I know it can be overwhelming sometimes with keeping up with everything on Spark, but if you can give yourself at least 20-30 minutes a day, it can really help keep your head in the right direction. Spark is also a great distraction for me when I want to binge. I tell myself if I can leave "X" amount of comments, goodies, blogs, etc. and spend 30 minutes on Spark and I still want that binge, I will allow myself 1 serving of whatever it is. I will then start the process over again with a walk, a chapter in a book, etc. Eventually the feeling goes away. I know it sounds insane, but when I want to binge I also go to a mirror and make myself look in the mirror and watch myself eat that horrible food I want. More often than not, I put the food back and work on another distraction. Good luck and I'm glad to see you back!!
    1607 days ago
  • MLYN92
    Glad to have you back! :) I think it is a positive step to ask your husband to help you find 'me time' for motivation, blogging, etc., it isn't selfish, it is a step forward!
    1608 days ago
    For me it was a matter of disgust for me and my body, after many years of yoyo dieting. I was 250 lbs, couldn't do much. I couldn't see my toes, or hardly bend over. I was unable to to walk very far without being winded. I looked like an over stretched balloon. I was ready for size 22. I actually wore a size 22 for awhile. I was so ashamed. Why did I let myself go to the next size? I should have stayed in the lower size, even miserable, and do something about it. My DH never complained, but I felt he was ashamed of me. I just finally had to do something. I finally turned to Sparkpeople, and baby steps really helped me to make progress and keep on going. It was sensible.

    I lost 50 lbs, and I've been maintaining for 5 years. I'mean healthy too.

    One tip: I get many new friend requests from new Sparkers, and they fade quickly becuse they add too many friends, join too many teams, etc. They get overwhelmed and quit. To start out, pick 1 team that might help you most. But don'the try to keep up with every thread. Pick a few friends that are close to your situation. Don't try to keep up with everything. Stick to only what is relevant first like starting exercise and nutrition. Build on that, then add as you are ready. Don'the feel obligated to too much. Baby steps!

    You can do this!

    1608 days ago
  • JF4009
    Thanks for your blog! It's good to hear from you. I don't know the answers either. All I know is that it is so much easier to gain weight than it is to lose weight. Keep working and dig in hard and you can do it.
    1608 days ago
  • MAYIE53
    Welcome back. Glad to see you blogging again. Unfortunately I do not have the magic answer either.
    1608 days ago
    It leaves open that area of sugar addiction & calories.
    1608 days ago
    Not sure myself. Get the kids use to a more natural snack it wouldn't kill DH either. There are some simple DESERTS to make or buy. WW has a lot. My nutritionists doesn't like WW for even introducing no points.
    1608 days ago
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