I'm so glad to say that I lost one whole pound at my WW meeting on Saturday morning! I was actually quite surprised because I had pretty much thrown in the towel by Thursday. I knew my weigh-in was only two days away, and fearful that I had gained, I decided I probably wouldn't go on Saturday to avoid the pain of another gain. But my wonderful husband said to me, "You're going to your meeting on Saturday morning, right?" Ummm...
So yes, I went. And I lost 1 lb. AND a wonderful lady in the group told a story about how she's been in a rut lately and hasn't felt like keeping on this journey anymore, and our wonderful WW leader said, "But if you give up now, think of how much further back you're setting yourself in the long run. You're so much closer to your goal now than you will be if you give up." She was absolutely right. I needed to hear that. Some days it can be so discouraging counting Points, logging it all, scanning barcodes, weighing and measuring out my portions, etc. and then have a few slip-ups and not lose anything (or you gain), and you set yourself even further back. BUT, I've realized that even if I'm not trending in a weight loss direction, I'm still learning SO much along this journey. The weeks that I gain or don't lose much, I'm trying to now look at in terms of a "learning" week, or a "try-this-ok-it-didn't-work-no
w-you-know-what-NOT-to-do" week! This has been so helpful mentally because in the past, I would just "start over again on Monday." If a week was bad, it didn't count. It will count Monday when I'm perfect again. Then I'd slip up, eat whatever I wanted for the rest of the week, and then start over again Monday. And here I am all these years later and trying to lose over 50 lbs as a result. I'm really glad that being in WW has helped me see things this way.
Another thing I'm proud of? I said NO to cake TWICE yesterday! Well actually, I just ignored it and said, "Oh, no thanks!" I was at a friend's baby shower yesterday and filled up my whole plate with fresh fruit and veggies, about a tablespoon's worth of veggie dip, and about a 1/3 cup of some delicious oriental salad (the kind with the Ramen noodles - to DIE FOR!) - and that was it! Just water too. No punch! And no cake. Oh God, I love cake and lots of buttercream frosting, but two of my friends opted not to eat it too, so that made it easier for me. I don't know if it was for themselves or if they were trying to help me feel better, but I was glad. We just chatted on the couch while everyone ate, and it was fine! I did take a piece home to my son (I promised him I'd bring home a surprise) and I really honestly didn't feel tempted to even try it at all. I absolutely know that one finger swipe of icing, and I'd be diving into the whole piece with reckless abandon. There would be no hope for that little square of cake covered in foil. But I promised it to my son, so I just ignored it. Then later that evening, my in-laws came over and brought a mini cake, too! So much cake. And I had NONE. This was easier because it was a "meh" store-bought cake, but it was kind of lonely to be in the kitchen pretending to clean up instead of sitting at the table and eating with all of them. But they know I'm trying to lose weight, so no one pushed it on me, which I was thankful for. There are so many times I've felt "woe is me" about "not being allowed to eat whatever everyone else is enjoying - boo hoo!" but I'm trying to turn it around in my head and instead think, "I can have cake another time, just not today. I'll save it for when it's really special, like maybe on my birthday." Or I try to think, "Oh, I feel sorry for them because that's a lot of calories and sugar that's going to just be sitting in their bodies now. Glad I don't have to worry about that." Or, "I can still have just as much fun as everyone else without the cake. Because once they eat it, it's gone, and we're just back to where we were ten minutes ago. So I'm not really missing much." I am realizing more and more every day how much my attitude and mental "game" really plays such an important role in whether I succeed at sticking to my weight loss goals or not. It all really, truly does start in your head! I think it was Henry Ford who said, "Whether you think you can or you think you can't, you're right." SO TRUE.
Yep. I found it on Pinterest. I need to hang this up somewhere to remind me...
Anyway, I am proud to say though that I've still lost about 8.5 lbs overall since I started in the spring, and I've been doing good about keeping up with my exercise. I usually run about 2-3 days a week and am shooting for at least 2.5 mile runs. I can see my pace gradually getting faster, and my body seems to be able to endure more and run longer than it did in the past. So even if my weight isn't going in the right direction, I'm glad I can feel some progress inside with my physical strength!
Here I am after my run a few days ago:
Bummer though - I'm getting sick. My son has had a runny nose and cough, and his poor little voice is hoarse. I was up with a sore throat and runny nose myself, and today I feel so much worse. I absolutely HATE being sick because I feel like it's wasted time! Instead of getting things done, I'm usually laid up on the couch. And it's REALLY hard to take care of a 3 year-old when you're BOTH sick! But maybe this is God's way of encouraging me to rest, take it easy, focus on caring for myself and my son instead of trying to be so busy and over-productive all the time. And of course, it is kind of nice to not have much of an appetite and not want to binge because you can't taste ANYTHING! :) Hope this cold doesn't last long, though!
Hope all you lovely Sparkers have an amazing week! It's nearly the start of a new month, a new season, and a new chance to make some incredible progress! :)