Changing an Old Habit
Thursday, September 10, 2015
I just have to get this out into words. I've been trying to figure out for years why between 8 and 10 p.m. I graze the food sources in my home. I'm not hungry yet I eat, and eat, and eat. Some nights I make good choices and some nights I don't. I've tried hobbies in place of eating. I've tried going to bed earlier. I've tried brushing my teeth. I've literally tried just about every suggestion my Spark friends have made.
Like a lightning bolt it hit me. What if I'm eating out of anxiety. It's true that I have several upon several home projects that need done. It's true that I say yes a lot and have projects that I am responsible for in my volunteer life. It's true that I'm continuously behind at work and could use an assistant (and a raise). And it's also true that I like to have ends tied up at the end of the day. I think when I realize every day how far behind I am I get hopeless and overwhelmed. When those emotions hit me it's time to medicate with food. I hate to use those words because it makes me feel like an addict. It's a habitual response to stress. My habitual response to stress at the end of the day is to eat.
Now to change the habit and change my thinking when it comes to having ends tied up at the end of the day. Learn to be appreciative of what I did accomplish instead of what I didn't get done.