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Knock on wood...

Thursday, October 08, 2015

I'm not really superstitious, but I'm almost afraid to write a blog about being on day 10 of abstinence from compulsive overeating. I've stayed under my top calorie range nine days and plan on it today. I do not know what set me off to start again and am not sure how I'm managing to keep it going. I guess I need to start journaling and blogging again to figure it out. I mentioned in one of my status updates that during the day I was having tiny bursts of random joy. On the way to work I was thinking (normally I listen to audio books) and wondered if maybe those random feelings of joy are normal for "normal" people who have them most of the day. I do not consider myself depressed any more, but I'm still not a bubbly person (unless I'm drinking bubbly! But that's rare anymore, too). It's just amazing to think that these momentary feelings of joy could become longer and more frequent. Wow. They only occur during the times I have changed my diet, and that amazes me too, that what we eat can so affect our mood. Yesterday I decided I wanted what I always order from Chick-fil-a, an 8-pack of chicken nuggets with a large waffle fry. I have that meal in my favorites and knew I would still stay in my calorie range. I sat in the drive-through with full intentions of ordering it, got up to the ordering spot, saw pictures of their salads on the board...and ordered a salad. Let me tell you how absolutely, totally, astounding that was to me. Can it be that I really am finally on my journey? Knock on wood....
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  • OPALMOON
    Brilliant! I am so pleased for you Phyllis! This is such great progress - good for you. I hope this streak continues, both the feelings of joy, no matter how fleeting, and the positive food choices - yes, they can make a difference to how we feel. Journaling is a great idea, especially those moments of joy - they will then always be there for you to reflect back on whenever you need that to give you boost. Way to go - you have every reason to be proud of yourself.

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  • M0MTH3W1TCH
    YAY for you! I'm a firm believer that you have to be physically, mentally and emotionally ready to stay focused and make it work. There are so many things on a daily basis that affect each of us. And you have found a way to make it work. I am proud of you. Keep up the good work. One day at a time.


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  • KALIGIRL
    How wonderful!
    I'm so glad to hear things are going so well and you are learning about yourself.
    I know emoticon and will love the results!
    1769 days ago
  • _LINDA
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    That is fantastic!! You are doing fabulous!! Keep up the momentum, you got This!!
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  • LEXIE63
    Either choice would have been a good one, but way to go that your choice was a happy one too. :-)
    1770 days ago
  • JOOPINCA
    WOW! That's awesome. Those little joys come and go. How nice to experience them. If you can, when one happens, dive in there. Just feel it. Allow it to permeate every part of you - the colors, the sensations, just sop it up like a sponge and feel grateful about it. Then, when the going gets tough again, try to recall that gratefulness about your joy feeling and maybe, just maybe, it can lighten the darker times, too. emoticon Have an amazing day.
    1770 days ago

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  • BETHUMZ
    You did it! Great job!

    I know I've found that the food journaling REALLY helps me stay on track. Just knowing it's there and telling myself that I HAVE to write it down - and even if I don't, I'll know I'm lying - to myself... and I'm more important than that! IT REALLY WORKS!

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  • no profile photo DEBORACRANDALL
    You rock!
    1770 days ago
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