HELP!!!!! that little old ant finally got crushed under her own weight!!!!
Tuesday, October 27, 2015
Ok, Sparkers, I REALLLLLLY need help here. Advice, gumption, new ideas, something.
I was coming off of a really great victory a few weeks ago. Having finally started to lose weight again after such a long hiatus. and then, WHAMBAMSMACKTHUMP, I decide to get on the scale, only to see a huge gain.
I mean, seriously, I was thinking, ok, I might not be surprised to see 1 or 2 pounds back, but 6???????
Seriously, SIX pounds in like 2 weeks.
WHAT IN THE H E DOUBLE HOCKEY STICKS!!!!
I am at a loss. Well, no, I am actually not.
But what is going on here????
I know I have eaten a few more calories, but I have actually been adding time to my walks and walking some days up to an hour and a half, one day walking 4.5 miles.
I am taking my vitamins, sleeping well, drinking my water.
Basically I am doing everything I know to do.
and still I gain.
And this is a bad week for it because I do go back to the doctor on the 3rd, and here I was imagining myself being able to finally go in there and gloat a little about how well I am doing.
I mean last visit I was down 6 pounds and was hopiing to be down more, but now I am going to go back in there having gained back every dang pound I lost!!!
I am just not getting this.
What am I doing wrong???
I have been fighting this losing battle for so long I am almost at the point of just accepting defeat.
I finally broke down and went to the chiropractor for the first time yesterday.
He took some xrays and adjusted my back and neck and gave me an ice pack.
He wants me back later this week so he can have time to get my most recent MRI report and see what he thinks will be my course of treatment.
I am just so sick of fighting, pounds, the weather, back pain, doctors and most especially insurance companies.
And mostly myself.
I dont feel like I am overeating out of depression or anxiety or stress.
I do this every time, it is a bad pattern that I need to break.
I will have a really good couple of weeks, then I slack off and let the weight come back, but a full 6 pound gain in that quick of a time makes me wonder if there is more going on.
Time will tell I guess, and i will eat crow and go back to the doctor and feel embarrassed and ashamed that I come back with all the weight I bragged about losing.
I wonder if Sparkpeople has a calorie count for crow???