Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.

yup, I'm guilty of the old Einstein quote. Every week I say I'm going to start over. Then every week I eat the same junk food, drink too much beer, quit tracking, workout far less that I need to - if at all. and every week I'm so disappointed when I don't lose weight. basically I'm wasting time and money planning healthy menus then not sticking to them. I buy weight loss videos, then let them gather dust.

enough is enough!

I know what I need to do to change my life and get healthy. I need to do it! no more excuses! I'm sick of wasting money, time and energy. I'm tired of being tired. I'm done disappointing myself!

I feel like I've written this same blog over and over just changed the words around and felt different emotions every time. so how am I going to stop writing the same blog over and over again? how am I going to achieve different results?

first, I'm going to track everything I eat. often i'll start a week off pretty well by tracking 2-3 days, then I mess up and don't track something bad, or I can't perfectly track so I just throw in the towel and say i'll start over next week. I need to change my mindset to start over the next day or the next meal. I just let myself go crazy once I mess up and eat whatever I want until next week. then I do the exact same thing next week. vicious cycle. I also need to take things one day at a time rather than one week or one month.

second, I'm going to workout. I love working out, it just takes me so long to get into a habit of doing it so I can become addicted. and once something messes that up, I quit so easily. I really need to work on forgiving myself.

I have to realize I'm in control of myself. I make my choices and allow myself to eat what I want, good or bad. I need to take control of the inner voice that wants junk food or beer. I'm in control.

I also have to realize I'm not perfect. life isn't going to go as planned all the time. I have to forgive myself, realize my mistake is not going to ruin everything if I don't let it.

ok, time to put this into action. time to get some real results. time to take control.