11-15-15 (day 14)

I had bad anxiety yesterday and last night. I am feeling exhausted today and was thinking of not doing as much cardio, if at all. Then I wrote this blog and say it was day 14. I told myself I can't skip day 14! So I will do my cardio, just maybe not first thing in the morning like usual. Maybe I can muster up some energy and shake off my pain and anxiety. I hope my anxiety stays away.

I got a lot running through my mind. This Thursday is my doctor appointment to go over results, and to talk about my breast issue. My breasts have not stopped hurting since the mammogram and I don't know if that is normal this far since getting one. Maybe the sonogram has something to do with it too. I am staying away from caffeine and trying to drink as much water as I can. I keep trying to put it out of my mind. With my kidney results and my breast findings... my anxiety is up. Maybe it is all finally hitting me. I was so calm about everything. And I know the protocol with the kidneys. And waiting is probably all I can do with the breasts. I feel in limbo with nothing I can do about anything.

Well going to get on with my day. I am going to dig deep for peace and happiness to make myself feel bubbly. I need that today.