11-16-15 (day 15)
Monday, November 16, 2015
I feel much better today. I was emotional, tired just all around blah yesterday. No matter what I did I couldn't shake it. But Thank GOD I feel better today. I got my exercise in for today. I am really going to put effort into getting enough water. I have not been thirsty or hungry so my belly turns when I drink or eat.
I contacted my brother asking for an update. Turns out my mom gets her wish of having Thanksgiving at her house which means me cooking. That's fine, I don't mind. I tend to cook for an army anyway and I am always the one who cooks and cleans and my husband runs errands and fixes things while we are there. Just the dynamic I guess.
I have 2 concerns about my "vacation" to my folks house. #1 blogging over my phone. I know it can be done but I am having issues actually typing a blog. I can view them but bringing up a blank blog to write in isn't working for me. I got time to figure it out though. #2 exercise. I tend to be more busy at their house than at mine. I THINK mom has a recumbent bike yet, maybe I can use that. OR I can save up 2 days off this week and 2 days off next week and take the 4 total days off while I am there. Playing it by ear and going with the flow I guess.
I think my anxiety is getting higher and higher. My husband now says he is going to take off work and go with me to this doctor appointment. I told him he didn't need to. He wants to hear what the doctor says first hand. I told him if that is what he needs for his own peace of mind, then he is welcome to come. I've got a ton of anxiety that I am trying to keep a lid on. Not sure how good of job I am doing. I feel like I am falling apart inside. I just want everything to be fine. I am working so hard.
On with the day.