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Can I think of something else other than dieting in life - part 1

Sunday, January 03, 2016

Gosh I haven't written online for a long time. I suppose I want to capture my initial thoughts as I restart my weightloss effort with more unrelenting focus. I want to think about other things in life. I just want this fat-thing to be done. In part, I need to stop asking why I got this way. I mostly know. I also realize that for me it is not very productive to keep dwelling on the past or negative feelings. I need corrective steps. I need the path forward. I now realize that it is really up to me to make change for my self. I also realize that I need company along the way. That is where I feel spark and group exercise classes can help. I still don't know what to ask of my partner to support me in my weight loss. That may be a topic of another blog bc I would like input on that too.

My topic as I restart my weight loss process is to clearly define WHY I am doing this. Why does this need to be done. And with doing so, to look those facts in the face daily to remind my self about why I want this. I also hope it keeps me focused and attentive to this goal.

I seem to have the memory of a gold fish so I have written down my reasons for losing weight. I will put them on an index card tonight and look at them each day. I hope this helps me believe and stick to what I want to do. I thought I would share them with you as well as document them for myself.

It is sort of a running list in no particular order.

-Reduce pain caused by being fat
-Move faster
-Be able to bend over and tie shoes without my stomach in the way
-Improve fertility
-Have a healthy pregauncy
-I do not want to be fat & preggers
-See if reflux will lessen
-Gain confidence
-Not be easily fatigued
-Wear lingerie, dresses, and shorts again
-Buy career clothing that is hip
-Can shop in regular sizes that have talls!
-Stop hiding from life
-End the hatred of being captured in a photo (fat shaming)
-I want my partner to see me as sexy again
-Buy a wedding ring not in a double digit number
-I have been fat nearly my entire life, I want to know something else
-I want to think about other things in life other than diet and exercise
-Not worry about weight limits (eg kayaks, lawn chairs)
-No more double or triple chin
-Where my stomach pops out further than my boobs!
-Have coworkers see me differently (I suspect they see being overweight as lazy and unfit)

I would LOVE to hear about your reasons if you would like to share! emoticon
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  • CHERRY666
    One of my number one reasons right now is because my stupid GERD is worse and I *know* it's because I've gained weight. It's such an unpleasant feeling. At least when I'm at a lower weight, as long as I avoid things that might set it off, things are okay. (No drinking or eating and then laying down, don't drink too much when eating, etc.) I bet as you lose weight, the reflux WILL diminish. I know personally the more I weigh, the worse it is -- and it's really annoying!
    1443 days ago
    Don't even care about that "someday when I'm skinny" thought. I used to dream and imagine about life when I'm thin/healthy. It never got me there. Just tracking 1 meal at a time is getting me there. Hope to see you on SP often...friends? :)
    1466 days ago
    Hi so brave and honest you are! Keep things simple for yourself - eat what you want when you want until your sorta full but just @ or under the max for calories for one day at a time. Exercise as you like at your pace when you want. No pressure...
    1466 days ago
    You forgot the most important reason.
    To love yourself again

    It's a slow journey, but stick with it.
    You have a lot of motivation to get you where you want to be, so let all of these things and more be your reminders. If you fall off the wagon one day, it's okay - you can get back on. Don't beat your self up and give your self a pat on the back for STARTING.

    1477 days ago
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