Gosh I haven't written online for a long time. I suppose I want to capture my initial thoughts as I restart my weightloss effort with more unrelenting focus. I want to think about other things in life. I just want this fat-thing to be done. In part, I need to stop asking why I got this way. I mostly know. I also realize that for me it is not very productive to keep dwelling on the past or negative feelings. I need corrective steps. I need the path forward. I now realize that it is really up to me to make change for my self. I also realize that I need company along the way. That is where I feel spark and group exercise classes can help. I still don't know what to ask of my partner to support me in my weight loss. That may be a topic of another blog bc I would like input on that too.
My topic as I restart my weight loss process is to clearly define WHY I am doing this. Why does this need to be done. And with doing so, to look those facts in the face daily to remind my self about why I want this. I also hope it keeps me focused and attentive to this goal.
I seem to have the memory of a gold fish so I have written down my reasons for losing weight. I will put them on an index card tonight and look at them each day. I hope this helps me believe and stick to what I want to do. I thought I would share them with you as well as document them for myself.
It is sort of a running list in no particular order.
REASONS WHY I AM LOSING WEIGHT:
-Reduce pain caused by being fat
-Be able to bend over and tie shoes without my stomach in the way
-Have a healthy pregauncy
-I do not want to be fat & preggers
-See if reflux will lessen
-Not be easily fatigued
-Wear lingerie, dresses, and shorts again
-Buy career clothing that is hip
-Can shop in regular sizes that have talls!
-Stop hiding from life
-End the hatred of being captured in a photo (fat shaming)
-I want my partner to see me as sexy again
-Buy a wedding ring not in a double digit number
-I have been fat nearly my entire life, I want to know something else
-I want to think about other things in life other than diet and exercise
-Not worry about weight limits (eg kayaks, lawn chairs)
-No more double or triple chin
-Where my stomach pops out further than my boobs!
-Have coworkers see me differently (I suspect they see being overweight as lazy and unfit)
I would LOVE to hear about your reasons if you would like to share!