An update on me :) I'm still here!
Thursday, January 21, 2016
Hello Sparkers! I know it has been entirely too long since I last blogged. I believe part of my blog was even a goal list that included a goal to blog more. smh... If I remember correctly my other goals were to take my vitamins and get my steps in which I can honestly say I have done every day. I'm on day 178 and counting of getting 10,000 steps or more! Woo hoo!
In other news, I have maintained my weight for several weeks and even lost a few pounds over the holidays which is the first time ever! I'm still 4 pounds away from my ultimate goal weight, but I'm happy where I'm at and I now know I have at least 8-10 lbs of extra skin, so that's a huge factor too! I had my appointment with a plastic surgeon right before Christmas, and it went really well. I'm confident I found the doctor I want to do my procedures, and the staff was great too. He said even if I wait and try to get my weight down a little further, it wouldn't affect my results. Also, if lose additional weight post surgery, that wouldn't hurt either. I'm looking to have my arms and stomach done at the same time. He said he's done this many times before and after much research, it seems many people have. It will be a 5 1/2 hour surgery that will take 2 - 2 1/2 weeks of recovery for me to even return to my desk job. As many of you know I had a hysterectomy 2 1/2 years ago and took off 6 weeks simply because I had the time at work. Now that I'm at a different job with less time off, I have to come back sooner than I would like and wait a little longer until I have more time built up since it now accrues a lot slower than it did before.
The cost was also another eye opener and cause for me to have to put the surgery off until probably fall as opposed to getting it this spring like I was hoping. I've been saving and had a number in my head I was hoping for, but I was quite a ways off. The doctor showed me the importance of doing a circumferential tuck instead of just the typical front tuck removing the apron. He started pinching skin all the way around my mid section to show all the excess that would remain if I did the traditional tuck. This, of course, added additional cost to the procedure. The number I had in my head was around $12,000 for both procedures and the final cost from the doctor for the surgery and aftercare was almost $16,000. Yikes.
Although it was a bummer to push it back a few months, I'm still really excited and know this will help keep me on track with both my health and financially. I have a bit of a problem with online shopping. :)
For the longest time I justified not getting surgery because I didn't think I deserved it. It was my fault for letting my body get the way it was, and this is my payback. I still feel that way a lot of the time, but emotionally I feel like this is something I really need. It's a struggle for many people that have lost a lot of weight and that others truly can't understand that haven't been there. Am I happier with the skin than I was the fat? Obviously. But I definitely wasn't prepared for the hate I would have for my body after losing almost 150 pounds. I read articles when I first started this journey stating this same exact thing, and I didn't understand it then, but I definitely do now.
Moving on, my new job has been a lot more time and energy consuming than I thought possible, but I do really love it. We are HUGE Detroit Tiger fans and we are taking our son to Tigerfest at the stadium this weekend, so I'm super excited for that. There are no vacations in my future so I can save for surgery, so these mini weekend trips we have planned over the next few months will have to do! I can't thank my amazing husband enough for supporting me in this journey. He hasn't been the greatest support with food, but he is in every other aspect, including giving up our vacations for a bit!
Well, that's all for today friends! I hope you all have amazing weeks and I HOPE to blog again soon, but I won't put it as a goal. :)