My Body (Image)
Sunday, January 31, 2016
Well, I'm back on the band wagon, this time not for a New Years resolution, but to stay healthy, keep my lungs strong and lose some weight.
Yesterday my husband said the sweetest thing to me, knowing my struggle is real. He said there is a bathing suit model that looks like me, Barbie Ferreira. He showed me the video. (Link attached). WHAT?! Not even close! She is 18, I'm 43. She's 5'8", I'm 5'2". She's cute... Horrible thoughts ran through my head.
He said, she is, curvy, I'm curvy. She has a short torso, I have a short torso. She has something to grab (he meant larger behind, I know he likes that), I have something to grab. Convo ended quickly. I was NOT going to discuss it.
Later, watching tv, I told him that he was sweet for saying that. He said he was not trying to be a jerk, but I'm not the only curvy women. He was genuine.
What a difference between what I think I look like.... A fat old lady who hates every fat cell in her body and wants to eat her way out of it..... And what my husband thinks I look like.... We are both wrong... But at least I know I'm the only one bothered by my image of myself.
Side note: I LOVE this REAL people campaign.