Trying to get back on track after a long hiatus. Food Blogs always seem to keep me motivated and make me feel more accountable so here I am again. Ready, to do whatever it takes to get me back on the right path. Most importantly feel happy, lose weight and manage my diabetes.
At the beginning of 2016 and I weighed in at 233 lbs. Back to where I originally started and 35 lbs higher three years ago when I was at my lowest adult weight. No Bueno.
Not only that but I was battling some serious health issues. Uncontrolled blood sugar, which made me exhausted, irritable, thirsty and hungry. I have insomnia, high cholesterol, debilitating migraines that I was getting now at least twice a week, daily stress headaches, random in infections that my body couldn’t fight off because my immune system was shot.
I was also really, really depressed, stressed and riddled with anxiety. I wasn’t living life, I was just surviving each day. I was binging up to 5 times a week, taking my medication sporadically and just not caring. I was starting to have panic attacks which I have never had in my entire life and this scared me. I was also crying at the drop of a hat. If I was working on something difficult or learning something new at work I would start crying. WTF? That is not ok.
I also found out that every medication I was on for sleep, for diabetes, for high cholesterol and for anxiety all had side effects of causing depression and anxiety. I could not believe his. So I slowly weaned myself off my meds with the help of my doctor. Currently I'm only on Metformin for my diabetes and plan on using healthy food and exercise as medicine. I read a lot of research where in clinical trials between Zoloft for depression or exercise for depression they both worked similarly to help ease the symptoms of depression but after a certain amount of time the Zoloft stopped working while the group that exercised kept getting better and were less likely to become depressed at a later time too. Plus exercise has no nasty side effects
I knew I couldn’t go on much longer this way. I needed help and I needed it soon. So I made the difficult decision to take time off from work before my work started slipping, see my therapist 3x per week and work with a diabetes professional. I’m going to use this time to work on myself, decompress, and get healthy both physically and emotionally. I’ve been working on myself for two weeks now and I’m feeling so much better.
I only have one life to live and I want to live it to the fullest!
Breakfast: 2 cups of corn flakes, a banana and 1 cup of almond milk
Lunch: Cauliflower crust pizza with pepperoni, mushrooms and goat cheese. OMG, soooo good. First time making this and the crust came out perfect. I ended up eating 3 slices which was one to many but live and learn.
Dinner: Crockpot steak fajita stew over ½ cup of brown rice and a pear for dessert. Mmmmmm…I wanted seconds and possible thirds but stuck to my one serving and then preoccupied myself.
Exercise: None. Booooo! Any motivation you could send my way would be great.
Bonus: Beautiful flowers from Trader Joe's for under $5. Love! They make me so happy.
Overall not a bad day. Although I didn’t eat as many veggies and fruits as I normally like to do.
Total Calories: 1,639