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3-29-16 (day 149)

Tuesday, March 29, 2016

This is my blog. I write on here to keep track of everything going on in my life. I do this in hopes to find triggers and encouragement. Also to keep myself present and accountable. To keep myself with this even if I have bumps in the road or fall off cliffs. I have had those and successes too. Yesterday was a bad behavior day for me. Carbs were my enemy but I joined them for most of the day. I was angry. Angry about what I am supposed to eat and what I am not supposed to eat. Angry that controlling blood sugar is not as easy as it may seem. Angry I was tired and there had been a change around here.

Now that I made myself accountable for yesterday I will deal with today. One moment at a time, one day at a time. If I don't at first succeed, try try again! I am proud of myself today. I will have a low carb day. I rode bike for over an hour today. I weighed myself today at 209.2 lbs. Went up. My fasting bsl was 221. Also too high. I am tackling this today. I rode over an hour and am eating right. I am drinking my water too. I had a good night sleep. I have supportive people around me. I will restart this same thing tomorrow and again the day after that and so on and so forth. I have a goal of riding in time the weight that I am. (2 hours and 9 minutes) I have rode 63 (1 hour 3 minutes) of those minutes so far today. Maybe this is a goal for just today. I would like it to be my every day goal. I will tackle that each day. If I can get an hour in on the bike I will be content. But aim to push myself. I HAVE TO keep myself, my health, my needs in mind. I NEED TO remember it is never worth it to shorten my life to eat wrong. I need to be remember that I am stronger over this when I put my mind to it than it is over me overall. Fight the best fight I am able against the bad parts of my health. Give it all I got. THAT I can be and am proud of.

I love my life, myself and the people I have close to me. I will do my best to live long to enjoy all that too. The best is yet to come.

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    Your goals for your journey are ever present, even when you indulge a little. I'm glad that, despite being angry over your actions, you're not beating yourself up too much. You are the empress of your empowerment, and I believe that you are a powerful woman :) I love the idea of exercising for the number of pounds you carry! That can be a pretty good motivation.
    1844 days ago
    Good luck!
    1845 days ago
    Yes! I love this blog. One day and sometimes one minute at a time. YOU CAN and WILL DO THIS!!!
    1845 days ago
  • BFRANZ0219
    Good luck. You can do it!!!
    1845 days ago
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