One Day I Saw Beautiful

Tuesday, April 12, 2016

I’m not sure exactly when it happened, really.

I was trying to find it in me to get myself back on track. I wasn’t feeling at all good about my progress. I was 53 years young at the time, looking matronly, feeling sluggish. I was teaching martial arts – teaching, mind you, not directly participating. I cleaned house, did the laundry, cooked dinner, all before I scurried off to my second shift job. I was active in church. I did walk my dog, Kovu, but every time I tried to go alone, I’d become guilt ridden because I left him behind. (Never look back, or you’ll be tortured by sad puppy eyes!)

More than that, in my eyes I was a fraud. How could I be a leader of any team, especially one with smart, sassy ladies, when I couldn’t place myself at a higher standard?

I backed away from Spark People. I lost interest in Sparks, so it seemed I lost interest in myself. Drat that foolish pride!

During my sabbatical, an epiphany, a spark, if you will.

I was at my nearest YMCA, heading over to the nearest weight machine to do anything to whip myself back to something acceptable, when I glanced to my left. There was an aerobics class going on. Through the glass, you could see how much fun everyone was having. Curious, I wandered over to look. It was a Zumba class. I had the DVDs at home, but had never seen a live class up close and personal. The participants of all ages and fitness levels were getting it! Smiling. Dancing. Having fun.

I quietly slipped in and got on the back row. I was puffing, my two left feet stumbling over themselves, but the music was hot and the energy was contagious.

Over the next few weeks, I was on the front row cutting up and shakin’ my groove thing.
A few weeks later, one of my party girls asked me if I wanted to teach.


Long story short, I became a certified Zumba instructor and began teaching at the Y.

Today, I viewed 60 or so seniors working out to the Silver Sneakers. I was in awe. There was joy as each man and woman moved to his or her own pace, sitting, leaning on chairs, going at it without props. Light weights. A ball. A light resistance band. Movement. Pleasure in the moment.

And I saw beautiful. I didn’t see frail – yes, we see our older citizens as “less than” at times, but I saw strength and vitality which left a smile on my face.

Which lead me to embrace my laugh lines, my full belly, my own movement. I am a soon-to-be senior, extra weight or not.

And I saw beautiful. Today, I saw beautiful!

I vowed to be as resilient as they.

Promise you will see yourself as beautiful, no matter what stage in life you are. For every time you tell yourself a negative, there is someone close to you saying the opposite.

As I watched the Silver Sneakers class, I saw myself beautiful. If it’s the Lord’s will, I will strive to do what they do, staying active and loving life!

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    thank you for sharing such a up lifting blog!!
    1287 days ago
  • no profile photo CD16571910
    It is great on what you are doing. A year ago I had a blood clot in my left lung and for 8 months could not walk 2 blocks or look after myself to eat properly. I gained 30 pounds.Two years ago I got chronic kidney disease. Since Feb. 1, I lost 35 pounds. I now have to see a specialist as my chronic kidney disease is stage 3 with possible liver damage after I saw a Dr. to get 14 tests done. I will get results from the specialist. I still have 15 pounds more to lose but my diet and exercise plan will change because of my health. If I can do it, so can you!!!
    1829 days ago
  • SUNSHINE5268
    I am soooooooooooo PROUD of you, yeh!!!!!!!!!
    1830 days ago
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    1842 days ago
    emoticon on becoming a Zumba instructor! It's great that you will be helping others stay active... while also helping yourself!

    Wishing you the best in your journey. emoticon ~ Dee

    1860 days ago

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  • no profile photo JEANNETTE59
    Beauty is truly in the eyes of the beholder. it has nothing to do with what the magazines and commercials would have us believe.

    When a person finds joy in living, whether they are a child or a senior, that joy radiates from within. Simple pleasures are far more rewarding than impossible dreams.

    You are finding your joy and in doing so you are seeing beauty in unexpected ways.

    Enjoy the journey!

    1887 days ago
    I absolutely loved your BLOG. Way to go on your success..........and YES, we ARE all beautiful people.

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    1888 days ago
    I'm a nursing home activity director. I see that beauty daily. It's wonderful, isn't it?
    1888 days ago
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