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Hitting Restart After Depression and Giving Up

Monday, April 18, 2016

I'm back...again.

It hurts my heart to admit that I had done so well with my weight loss, only to gain all but one pound back. It's a difficult thing to admit, espeically since I had lost about 70 pounds. It feels like a punch in the gut, like everyone looks at me and thinks, "wow, she just gave up". That statement is partially true. I did sort of just give up, but not like most might think. The weight gain wasn't all from eating poorly, but a good amount of it is. The weight gain was a combination of two things: Medication and giving up.

I had maintained the majority of my weight loss for years. It was actually quite simple too! Unfortunately, I found myself one day right smack in the middle of depression, and despite all of my hard work and effort, I just couldn't shake it. Since I knew I was getting worse, I decided that my best option was medication. It worked, and I soon was acting and feeling like the girl I used to be. However, that was only the truth for my feelings, not my appearance. I ended up gaining 30+ pounds while on the medication. Soon the tears I cried from feeling sad towards life, were now tears toward my body and how much I gained. I thought that maybe, just maybe, once I quit the mediation, the weight would just fall off and I find myself back in my old wardrobe and happy again. Well, that didn't happen. Instead, I swear I gained even more weight! Before I knew it I was 50 pounds heavier. I tried almost everything to lose the weight. Counting calories and exercise (the method I used to lose the previous 70 pounds), following a diet plan though a weight loss video, Nutrisystem, a restriction diet to see if I had a food allergy, you name it I might have tried it. Nothing, and I repeat, nothing really helped. With counting calories and exercise, I did that for 6 weeks one time, while regularly exercising, and lost not a single pound. Talk about discouragement. I managed to loss 10 pounds while following Nutrisystem, but that took 3 months! After all these setbacks, I say to myself, "you might as well eat what you want, because you're obviously not going to lose, enjoy yourself!". I did, and I gained and gained.

So what changed? Well, I was looking through my newsfeed on FB and ran across someone I knew that had lost weight. I sent her a message inquiring as to what was she doing, and she told me about TSFL (Take Shape For Life). Both her and her sister-in-law and managed to loss a decent amount of weight and I thought, what the heck, I'll give it try for one month and see what happens. I received my first month's supply and said that I would give it an entire month, with no cheating, to see if it helps. I had low expectations because everything else failed. Imagine my surprise to be down 10 pounds the first week! I have constantly lost every week since then, with the exception of this one, thanks to TOM, but I'm already down 23 pounds in 2 months. It feels FANTASTIC and I feel joy and happiness again.

So, I'm back at this weight loss thing once again. Finally. I'm exciting for the future once again and happy to be "home" on Spark.
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  • BRAVELYSHEBLOGS
    Keep the faith, you've got this! I understand the pain of regaining due to depression. I'm in a similar situation, although it wasn't the meds in my case, but a sense of absolute fatigue and powerlessness. Before depression, I had been working in women's fitness and dreaming of starting a my own personal training biz. But all that has faded now, seems like a lifetime ago. Depression is real and can have devastating effects on our physical health. Every step you take in this journey home to your body counts, never forget that xx emoticon
    63 days ago
  • BONEFIDEBOSS
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    1651 days ago
  • MSFARKAS34
    Best of luck! Im in the same boat! The struggle is so real but You fot this! Change can happen as we both know just have to be patient ! Lol something Im tryin to learn to have! Good LUCK!
    1654 days ago
  • BBGYRL4
    Thanks, Cheryl! emoticon
    1654 days ago
  • CHERYL4808
    Fresh start with renewed spirit...you got this. Glad your back. Wishing you daily success on your journey.
    1654 days ago
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