4-15-16 (day 176)
Monday, April 25, 2016
Fasting bsl 204. Higher than I want it to be. I have been giving a lot of thought of what to say to my doctor. I am dreading that appointment. It probably wont go as painful as I am imagining. I think I am just disappointed in myself. I need to work on self control. I can't wait until the appointment is done and over and I can feel like my slate is wiped clean. I am pretty positive I will go back to 3 month checks. And if I do, then so be it. I will work harder. I just get so tired and angry that I am so restricted and work so hard most days. I do have days where I slip and say why am I trying so hard. It feels like more than a full time job sometimes. Exhausting.
Time to suck it up and make this day a great day! The rest yesterday really helped with my pain. Except my hands, I aggravated them. I will get through the pain. I am tough, strong, and know what I need to do.