5-18-16 (day 199)
Wednesday, May 18, 2016
How fitting is it that today is 199 of my re-start of this turbulent journey. Tomorrow is day 200 and a new chapter starts. I have been on SP for several years. Been diabetic for more than 20 years. I understand my A1c, I understand how eating and exercise and water can effect my blood sugars along with my weight. Sometimes the body needs extra help to function though. And that is my issue.
I went to the doctor today after 6 months of a medication change. During those 6 months my blood sugars were up near 400 at any given point and time. Fastings were high too. I know the thing to do to get those numbers down myself. And I did that. Lowered my carbs, raised protein and fiber, exercised cardio, drank lots of water. Today my fasting blood sugar was 117. Fabulous considering where I was a couple months ago. Funny how much of a change taking one less pill can do to the system. I saw the doctor today. I shrunk a half an inch...In January I was weighing 210, February 209. Today I weighed 201. So that is great! My blood pressure was high because I was so nervous and disappointed in myself for having my A1c going UP almost a full point. Dr. agreed I need to up my insulin to be able to live a more freeing lifestyle. I will stick to my eating plan and exercise plan that I have been doing. But have permission to up my insulin units weekly until my averages are below 120. Right now I am on the right track.
Dr. was in a pretty good mood after giving me the side eye when he came in. I said, I know I am in trouble. He said yeah. He gave me the option of insulin twice a day or up my once a day insulin. We had room on the one a day, so I chose that option. I told him I was nervous and disappointed because I had been doing so well. I showed and told him all the things I had been dealing with. And thanked him for not being hard on me. Then we talked like friends. About our kids, spouses, summer plans, anniversary plans... Maybe he was in a good mood because he had just booked a trip to Mexico lol??? He gave me the benefit of the doubt and instead of re testing me in 3 months, he gave me 4. I am thankful for that. I know he believes in me. We both agree that I am harder on myself than anyone else. But that shows it is important to me.
Oh so much emotional relief. I got a walk in today. Beautiful out today. I was 201 today, I was praying for under 200. But 9 pounds is good to lose. I think I will keep the scale hidden and tell hubby to not tell me where it is. That really helps me focus on my blood sugar numbers and not the scale. Losing weight is just the bonus.
Thanks for all the support!