5-21-16 (day 202)
Saturday, May 21, 2016
Well today is the day we say good bye to our good friend. Sad but he needs to move on, understandable.
My mind weighs heavy about my sons. Oldest is battling depression and has been getting help but he is struggling. Very worried for him, I am virtually powerless to help. I can only be there for him. My middle son struggles to break into being an adult. Understanding the amount of responsibility that goes into being an adult. My youngest, struggles in school. This week wasn't as successful as he would've liked. He's been sick. He sounds better, but I can tell he's still wiped out.
Ahh, being a mom, loving, caring and wanting to save my kids but know I can't. I make sure I give e or get them the help they need the best way I am able. Hard part, for me, in being a mom...stepping back, trusting others to help them and allowing them to go through difficult times. Sometimes mom can just be there, love and support. Painful and tough but all i can do. I am happy they can and do come to me though.
Food tends to be a central binder to family. Exercise and games too but food tends to be the key to getting everyone together. Safe and dangerous all at the same time. Each of us have different dietary needs. Weirdly enough, I find it a positive challenge.
Sigh searching for strength inside for this weekend and days to come. Not just for me, but those around me.