Awesome run today!
Friday, June 22, 2007
I felt so good today during my run. It was easier, I was able to run longer the breaks I had to take were shorter. I felt really good. I'm still under what I was up to before vacation....had to throw a negative into the mix! UGH! I will get back to running the 9:30 minute mile and not the 11 something, well today was 10:20 mile. I got home and then did a litlte bit of a kickboxing routine that was on Fit tv. Tomorrow is suppose to be my off day for running, but I may just do a few miles for the heck of it.
I pulled up a routine from RW's smart coach. I want to do another 5k on July 7th. This routine has me running 800 meters at a 4 min. mile!! YIKES thats like half a block! at full speed!!! I wanna increase speed, so if I want to increase speed I guess I'll have to suck it up and do the 800 meters 3 times at top speed.
My eating habits still have room for improvement. Snacking today was a little rough. I wanted sweets today, I think I did okay. I had a bowl of sherbet, then a few hours later I had some trail mix that had M&M's in it. I ate about a 1/2 cup of the trail mix. I had a cup of my Chi tea. Well crap, I also had 3 drinks tonight before dinner..margerita's(I know that spelling is totally butchered) I had a lime in the crisper and my first thought was a drink! I had some of that Chi-Chi's drink mix left what better way to use up a lime LOL.
I had bumpy sea's with Johnathon and his usual not thinking before he does something. I needed to relax, I was on edge, felt like crap for the yelling I did at Johnathon in front of his friends. I felt bad. I just said the hell with it and had the last of that drink mix.
Things are okay and he acts like nothing happened at all today...go figure.
I have some weight goals i need to work on. To improve this time issue I would LOVE to get down to an 8 minute mile..me?!? 8 minutes. That is my goal. I have to drop a few pounds though. I'm running with 144 pounds, if I could drop 5 pounds I'm sure my speed would pick up a bit. For one I have to find a different outlet when things get rough between Johnathon and I. Cause turning to food each time is NOT healthy, nor is it ever going to help with my weight....seeing we are at each other's thoart almost daily!!! to think he's only 11 god help me!!
Am I a bad parent when I can't wait for when he leaves to go down south for 2 weeks??? i feel awful, but OMG 2 weeks without Johnathon here butting heads with me and fighting with one or both of his sisters a daily basis?!!??! I'll miss having my kids here all at home, in their beds but the break I'm really looking forward to it. I feel bad for feeling like this.
I'm just all over the place tonight, talking about this and that.
sorry for the crazy thoughts tonight.