second time around blog
Monday, July 25, 2016
First of all, this is my second blog today so no points for this one.
Earlier I had posted a pretty long blog, all about how sometimes it is best to manually enter a food into the spark tracker to get the correct nutrional values, as some people enter a food, but dont enter all the info.
So, I have been watching that really close and if a nutrient I am tracking isnt listed, I manually enter it, to make sure I am tracking as closely as possible. and the rest of the blog was about how I am tired of struggling, working hard, making sacrifices, getting out of bed before daylight, walking, sweating, having humidity hair and sweaty clothes and painful feet, etc, only to get on the scale to disappointment.
A big loss
followed by a big gain.
Beating myself up over a poptart for breakfast, beating myself even harder for having ONE mixed rum drink over the weekend, and a reese cup.
Knowing full well that this little amount of indulgence didnt lead to a 4 pound weight gain in 2 days.
I was trying to edit the blog to cut out a portion so it wouldnt be so long to read, when boom, I accidentally deleted it and tried in vain to get it back.
There were a couple of comments, but I didnt get to read them and to whomever commented, thanks for reading, I dont know who you were but thanks.
I know the scale isnt the only measure of success. But I have an appointment with my doctor Friday and I worked my tail off all last week, I walked, I worked out, I didnt eat any bread. I made sure to drink my water, get my vitamins, sleep everything just right.
And I was feeling really great Friday when I got on the scale to a 4 lb loss, I even took a pic with my phone to make sure I wasnt dreaming.
I stepped off the scale, waited for it to reset, got back on just to make sure it wasnt a figment of my imagination.
Only to get on this morning to all that weight right back.
Stepped off, waited, stepped back on, same thing.
It made me mad. I know I did the work. Was that loss last week a fluke?
Just water weight that came right back??
This was what my doctor asked me last time, I had a 4 lb gain.
Why cant I lose this weight people???
How much stress and aggravation do I have to go thru just to lose a pound???
I lost 70 pounds, I did the same things then I am doing now.
Now, here I am, having regained 13 lbs of that loss and now I cant lose a pound to save my life.
Seriously, if 1 pound stood between me and certain death, I would be a goner!!!
But despite all that, I did go to the track, I added an extra 14 mins walking.
I am sticking to my food plan today.
Just as I did all of last week.
I am losing my mind, but dont worry it will come back, just like my weight!!!!