MIA Status ~ I'm Back

I know I've been gone for over a month. I have no excuses. I have just been out of it emotionally. Ever since my husband herniated the disc in his back, it has just been VERY draining on me. I can't even describe what toll this has taken on my physically and emotionally. I don't want to sound like I am complaining, but everything has fell to me. I am now pretty much required to do EVERYTHING around here. I not only carry my load, but his too. He is not allowed to lift anything over 5 lbs without risk of re-injury. No twisting, pushing, or pulling. It's been very taxing and stressful.

On top of all of this, my daughter suddenly hit a phase of mild depression-type behavior. She was mopey, quiet, and sat in her room distant. She will be 14 this month and wasn't quiet herself. She came and talked to both of us about her troubles several times in tears. We know the source of her pain and are working through it, but, again, it's HARD. This is creating more emotional and physical havoc on mama.

I was just having a hard time making time for me. I have started emotional eating again and have put about 5 lbs on...UGH!

My husband had his first spinal injection which hasn't seemed to help much. He goes for the follow-up visit from that tomorrow. I am guessing they will do a second one. They are talking physical therapy after the injections are done. We will see.

My daughter is doing better now and that makes me better, but she still has some things to overcome. She is like me when I was that age. I let what people thought of me bother me too much. She is just at that critical age where some of the things people say or do mean more than they realize. Children are so impressionable.

I'm back for now. It will probably be a slow come-back though. I am going to ease back into things and see how I do. My husbands jogging career is more-than-likely over and so we will be walking for now. We are hoping to get him a bike so he can bike ride while I jog. We will see...


~Amanda