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MIA Status ~ I'm Back

Monday, August 01, 2016

I know I've been gone for over a month. I have no excuses. I have just been out of it emotionally. Ever since my husband herniated the disc in his back, it has just been VERY draining on me. I can't even describe what toll this has taken on my physically and emotionally. I don't want to sound like I am complaining, but everything has fell to me. I am now pretty much required to do EVERYTHING around here. I not only carry my load, but his too. He is not allowed to lift anything over 5 lbs without risk of re-injury. No twisting, pushing, or pulling. It's been very taxing and stressful.

On top of all of this, my daughter suddenly hit a phase of mild depression-type behavior. She was mopey, quiet, and sat in her room distant. She will be 14 this month and wasn't quiet herself. She came and talked to both of us about her troubles several times in tears. We know the source of her pain and are working through it, but, again, it's HARD. This is creating more emotional and physical havoc on mama.

I was just having a hard time making time for me. I have started emotional eating again and have put about 5 lbs on...UGH!

My husband had his first spinal injection which hasn't seemed to help much. He goes for the follow-up visit from that tomorrow. I am guessing they will do a second one. They are talking physical therapy after the injections are done. We will see.

My daughter is doing better now and that makes me better, but she still has some things to overcome. She is like me when I was that age. I let what people thought of me bother me too much. She is just at that critical age where some of the things people say or do mean more than they realize. Children are so impressionable.

I'm back for now. It will probably be a slow come-back though. I am going to ease back into things and see how I do. My husbands jogging career is more-than-likely over and so we will be walking for now. We are hoping to get him a bike so he can bike ride while I jog. We will see...

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    Ugh. Tough, tough. Remember to take care of yourself during this time. Thinking of you. emoticon
    1693 days ago
    Hang in there - so glad you are back...taking time for you and your health is super important.
    1719 days ago
  • SBEAR5
    Amanda, I am so sorry for all your struggles. I will pray for God to give you the strength you need. I feel so bad for people with back problems. It seems to be such a show stopper. Hoping the doctors are able to help him.
    Oh man, 14. You couldn't pay me to be that age again. Hoping she is able to climb out of this depression a strong more resilent young woman!
    1719 days ago
    It warms me how you wrote about your daughter. Too often these experiences would be written off as, 'She's just a teenager' or 'None of this junior high drama will matter in ten years,' but you care and are noticing and she feels she can talk to you. What a blessing in bad times.
    1720 days ago
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    I am sorry you are going through all of this. Be kind to yourself as much as you can. I certainly understand that it's hard to have all of this on you. I pray he heals soon and that all of you can get back to a normal life. :)
    1720 days ago
  • MSHEL7
    I'm so glad you are back and taking care of yourself. Give yourself time, take it baby steps if need be, just do something for yourself every day. Sorry things have been so rough lately. I have a 12 year old boy who is in the same sort of place as your girl. Sometimes it is so tough.
    1721 days ago
    Wow...first of all...big hugs emoticon are really going through a lot...

    I honestly can relate with your husbands injury...we went through the same thing...years ago he started having pain and over the course of the next 18months it was ,,, MRI's...injections...physical therapy..finally resulting in surgery...which was the BEST thing that ever happened!! He healed up almost better than before the problem..BUT through the whole process I carried the burden of everything..just like you... emoticon we had 2 little kids and a very active lifestyle...if you want to vent...I am here for you!!
    I will have you and your family...your my prayers...14 is a tough age..and all that goes with it...

    Just remember,,you have to take care of YOU..."you can't pour from an empty cup!" emoticon
    1721 days ago
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