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Failure? Still sparking...

Saturday, August 20, 2016

I ended the summer challenge weighing MORE than when I began.

It has been a very challenging summer -- with my sister's death at age 55, my mother's declining health (she's 93!), a new boss at work... I have made choices not-to-exercise and choices not-to-eat--well. I own all that. I accept responsibility. Actions have consequences (and not--acting also has consequences).

BUT. I have also made the choice to keep logging on to spark people and participating in (some) of the weekly challenges (some of the days).

I KNOW that in order to lose weight, I need to exercise and eat well CONSISTENTLY. I am NOT giving up.

My sister MLH148 is the one who got me started on this spark journey. I don't know what she would say about my weight gain. I hate the idea of disappointing her.

So. Today is a new day. I don't like the number on the scale or the way my clothes fit or how sore my puffy, swollen (SALT!) hands are.

But I have 24 hours to make choices and I am grateful for everything I have learned from sparkpeople. And especially everything I learned from my sister.

I'm still sparking.

I'm not giving up.
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  • MERMAIDWALKS
    Im not sure how much your weigh gain was... but you could be building muscle...

    The fact you are here still trying says alot. It says you need support and help... and you are striving for something else in life.

    So you were perfect on the wagon... WHO really is... But getting back on is the first step to making a change.

    Just know... I am proud of you for still trying. I am proud of you telling us how you are struggling.... I am proud of you no matter what.
    1410 days ago
  • WWINFC
    One small step at a time - pick your one thing for the week. If you're puffy from salt, maybe the 8 glasses of water a day would be a great start.

    Sending you a hug

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    1411 days ago
  • ANNDANDY
    You can do this. KEEP going
    1411 days ago
  • BEACHTIME9
    You have not failed at all, in fact - You are Strong!! You have gone through a lot and sound like you have handled all quite well. I'm glad you posted this. Life is not easy!! Praying for strength and success for you! You deserve it!!
    1411 days ago
  • SCHATZISMOM
    I'm so sorry to hear about your sister's passing. You aren't going to disappoint her because you are keeping on. We all have challenges. It's how we fight through them that matters. Hugs
    1411 days ago
  • THEVOW2013
    Hi and Good to See You here! I'm proud of you! Keep sparking, you are worth it! My condolences for your sister and I pray God strengthens you to deal with your mom's health and life. We have only our sidewalk to clean up. And that's enough.
    1411 days ago
  • ANIKUF
    Every day is a new opportunity to start over. I'm beginning my journey again after many attempts so don't give up.
    1411 days ago
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