Failure? Still sparking...

I ended the summer challenge weighing MORE than when I began.

It has been a very challenging summer -- with my sister's death at age 55, my mother's declining health (she's 93!), a new boss at work... I have made choices not-to-exercise and choices not-to-eat--well. I own all that. I accept responsibility. Actions have consequences (and not--acting also has consequences).

BUT. I have also made the choice to keep logging on to spark people and participating in (some) of the weekly challenges (some of the days).

I KNOW that in order to lose weight, I need to exercise and eat well CONSISTENTLY. I am NOT giving up.

My sister MLH148 is the one who got me started on this spark journey. I don't know what she would say about my weight gain. I hate the idea of disappointing her.

So. Today is a new day. I don't like the number on the scale or the way my clothes fit or how sore my puffy, swollen (SALT!) hands are.

But I have 24 hours to make choices and I am grateful for everything I have learned from sparkpeople. And especially everything I learned from my sister.

I'm still sparking.

I'm not giving up.